Maximizer

2011-11-19T16:01:00.001+08:00

This semester should be buried in the deepest darkest abyss, never to be brought up again.

2011-11-14T09:00:00.001+08:00

Even heroes have the right to bleed

Just realized too that the next semester might just be hell in so many ways =(

2011-11-12T00:01:00.001+08:00

只有在体会爱的不完美
才能够学会爱该怎么给

2011-11-06T23:13:00.001+08:00

In his time, in his time...
Yahweh makes all things beautiful in His time.

2011-11-05T23:32:00.001+08:00

Inside every woman is a little girl yearning to be told she's beautiful;
Inside every man is a little boy yearning to be told he's strong.

When two become one...

2011-02-05T01:00:00.004+08:00

I guess I blog when I'm down and out. When I'm sad. When I feel like I have to cry out. Or make a stand in front of God and people of the things I have to keep believing in. Like the promises in the Bible which I want to declare that I hold onto by faith. Or maybe to cry out to you.

But I know that barriers upon barriers have been demolished between us. =)

For that I thank you. And I thank God.

Lord Jesus please hold this bridge between me and my dearest steady with Your firm hands. For everything in heaven and on earth is held together by You and for You!

Baby you're a firework!

Tears for Fears

2010-12-18T01:31:00.006+08:00

Been a relatively long time since I shed that tear. But I guess it should be better to be true and honest to myself and others as far as I know myself. As long as I do what I ought to do or not do what I ought not to do in my knowledge, I should be happy at the progress? That I'm not being willful, that I flow according to God's timing.

So often in a Christian walk, correcting your own wrong can bring about more hurt than if you left it at that.
I'm so sorry for the hurts.

I don't have the right to ask for your patience, but God is really not done with me yet. You have been wonderful.

Voice of Truth

2010-11-17T00:05:00.011+08:00

"The plans of the heart belong to man, but the answer of the tongue is from the Lord."
Proverbs 16:1

Can't believe this section of the proverbs keeps glaring at my face...

The next part goes
"All the ways of a man are pure in his own eyes, but the LORD weighs the spirit. Commit your work to the LORD, and your plans will be established"
Proverbs 16:2-3

Indeed, sometimes I might have good intentions, but the words just come out all wrong. This has thankfully seen much progress I feel... But always. Pray. On the spot. Before I release any words that I know will have an impact. Before even relying on my own SUPPOSED wisdom. Before knowing that I have to think really hard, I should be PRAYING really hard.

Regarding verses 2-3. Not everything that I think is good, is good. Only the Lord sees the "spirit" of it. The true intents. Even those masked by the unconscious mind that we don't realize. I really need to rely more on the Lord. Not by words, but by faith and deed. And putting God first, especially in praying and QT, would be the first step.

'"All things are lawful," but not all things are helpful. "All things are lawful," but not all things build up. Let no one seek his own good, but the good of his neighbor.'
1 Corinthians 10:23-24

Think Max. Think. Patience. Trust. Faith.

"I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth."
I must choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.

I must choose.

so many things
in my life
that needs to be worked on
to fight for

you gave me
the impetus
that the good things in life
the things we sometimes don't have
the things we take for granted
are worth fighting for

there's so many battles at all fronts
but the Voice of Truth
tells me a different story
the battle is His
if i would only believe

=)

2010-11-09T00:52:00.003+08:00

heys you.

I can only guess what you clicked on facebook that made u so sad, but i think that my guess is quite a good one..? This self-disgrace pig thinks so anyway haha...
(^(oo)^)

Yup some things are hard to be expressed in words? You're not obligated to tell me, and I won't speculate more and worry too much for you, cos you're not a bimbo, you're a mature lady - a woman.

Meanwhile, the listening ear is here if u do want to share! Otherwise, i will just leave this post here... =)

So, here's a song that might express things better:

It was so my song in sec sch...
So youthful and cliche... never knew it would bring such a toothy grin to me now

Hähåx hope it does for you too!

像开在荊棘裡的花…

2010-11-01T18:36:00.003+08:00

Sighh sorry Lord tt I always ignore you when I'm buried in my feelings. Mental weakness. Lack of faith. Moping. Emo. Whatever one calls it.

Yet guess this iceman can be melted easily by gracious friends huh? (insert the most genuine smiley which no text can represent) And then it often gets into the habit of freezing spontaneously again... Which must be worked at. Correction: Fought for at every opportunity...

Don't wanna go down the path of building up high walls to numb myself yet cos the Lord always reminds me of the potential to grow, and an adventure diary to write.

Not the diary of an average student.
Not the diary of a worker in this clockwork system.
Not the diary of a lukewarm disciple.

Up

2010-10-31T02:52:00.006+08:00

You might have already known, but it's just been such a rollercoaster ride for me these past days. In the initial stages after the inevitable happened, I had the strength to be myself and always approach you, and offer my strength to try to make things better for you. Thereafter you just seemed to manage on your own; somewhere somehow along the way I slowly crumbled on the inside - like I really depended on you.

Now the thought of you can trigger ripples in my heart. It might take some time for me to be myself before you again, but please be patient with me. It's really my first emotional entanglement which I must conquer conscientiously and not bury. Wounds brought out by my life thus far too, which I'm glad to be slowly being healed first and foremost by God now. Rather than later, or in a worse situation, or with a less forgiving and patient girl. And it's not something I want you to do, or that you should even do at all. Similarly, I can't be the one who is first and foremost there for you as much as I might want to. Only God can, or whosoever He wishes in His infinite wisdom and love for you. That's why we chose this path. So pray for me... For I'll pray for you...
Your beautiful soul is deserving to be fought for. And you don't need that validation from any man, because God fights for you right now. And I will find my strength from our Lover Himself too before I would dare to offer it to anyone...

So release and let that kite fly far, embrace the breeze that whispers God's love
Let go and he will keep the kite in the air better than you or I can

Let's walk together with our eyes ahead
For it's dangerous to look into each other's eyes

Still haven't woken up after September ended!

2010-10-22T23:39:00.004+08:00

In September, I posted a note in Facebook, thanking my classmates who encouraged and helped me in my studies, and announcing my intentions to do better. In terms of putting in more effort, and NOT the results. Though the results already speak for themselves.

I think as I re-evaluate myself today, my improvement in terms of attitude and effort put in is insignificant (5% significance level, one-sided, p>0.05).

Its in somber reflection as I type this... But with hope because God is not done with me! The trigger for my post is probably finding out about the examples and attitudes of my other friends (both Christian and non-Christians), and CG today which consisted of an especially good fellowship, sharing, praying for one another - albeit sacrificing Bible study. Very encouraging for me.

I will attempt to list the many many things I have done or failed to do in school, and I can't give any excuses for them.

In no order:
1) Always prioritize other tasks over schoolwork, because I just dread doing work
2) Sometimes using the excuse that I'm doing God's work in order to put studies aside
But how can my role as a student in this season not be considered His work too?
3) Procrastinating on the computer, at home and in school
4) Never doing any work for a significant time at home; using the excuse that "its just me, I can't study at home"
5) Copying from seniors' lab reports - just because everyone's doing it. Yet people like Gareth and Ashley have the integrity and right learning attitude not to.
6) Even in group lab reports, not doing enough for the group; Feeling guilty, yet unable to find the will to change
7) Not preparing in advance for lectures, TUTORIALS, and PRACTICALS!!! Seldom completing the tutorial before the lesson, or reading up on the practical manual and revising the theoretical concepts of the session.
8) Not putting in enough effort to pay attention in lectures. First half of the semester, I was very guilty of dozing off. Its getting better now.
9) Playing with my phone when I'm bored in the lecture. Not much of a problem now already.
10) Skipping some lectures. Shall not mention why, but yup stupid of me!
11) Skipping a series of webcasted lectures. But I honestly think it's okay because it's in the evening and there's a difficulty in understanding the lecturers. At least from my impressions in the first few sessions. So I can repeat the slides and video in the webcast. But the problem is I still have backlog of them. Which also results in (7)
12) "Wasting away" free time in school. Although it's not technically a waste because time enjoyed wasting away is not wasted time. :D
But seriously, I really enjoyed the time with my friends in these free periods. Just that if the time were allocated to revision, and utilizing the school facilities, I would be so much better off.

Yeah embarrassing to post these, but hope I can review these in time to come, and pray over these. In general the organization of my studies is a mess. Results wise is not good compared to what I think I can achieve too. But yup results is really not the driving factor. I'm just super sobered up that I'm not reflecting Jesus well, especially hearing it from someone personally.

Just a final thought that a note posted by Abraham was a thought-provoking one. Just the title for now, because I would have to read the contents in-depth. Also, at one glance, my mind just glosses over the words because the concepts are familiar and intuitive to me. Yet applying is a whole different thing! Not apply is as good as not knowing.

The title of note had this in it: "Christian by name. Atheist by profession."

Guilty as charged..!

(Then Jesus barges in and says: "TAKE ME!! I did it!!". And He took our punishment. Sorry ^.^ just couldn't help myself from typing this cliche part. But oh how true it is haha...)

Grace upon grace

2010-10-20T14:35:00.006+08:00

Thank you Lord.

I cried out to You, and You listened. You intervened all these time.

Thank you for the wonderful people around me. For the people still patient with me.

Just read this verse:
"Every way of a man is right in his own eyes, but the LORD weighs the heart. To do righteousness and justice is more acceptable to the LORD than sacrifice."
-Proverbs 21:2-3

I thought I quoted the first verse in my blog post before, but apparently its different! What speaks most to me from God is the subsequent bolded verse. Lord please teach me to do things which are right for others in your eyes, and not what I think is right in my eyes which I sometimes think wrongly are "sacrifices" to you. Help me be more AWARE of things - the things that I do to others which I don't realize.

Yes, sometimes I don't think I can make it on my own...

Each A Cup or Koi?

2010-10-14T23:06:00.002+08:00

"The journey was never meant to be easy. But it is one that we must travel. And one that for every bit of pain, we often get tons more joy and blessing."

Oh no never meant to worry anyone with these past posts but I just told myself to be honest. At that time.

I think I'm really the kind who lives for the moment. Not only in enjoying every moment, but moping in the moment. Thus my negative thoughts cascade into sometimes unfounded worries.

And worries God never meant for me to bear.

You shouldn't worry for me too, for you brought out the best in me. The bad came out with it, but it was only a matter of time. So yep its a journey of self-discovery that I'm travelling too. And its very humbling.

Ultimately this seems selfish of me to think about myself, but yup just saying I'd be okay. But I'd do everything to help you be okay too!

And so the least I could do is to pray for your joy and blessing to manifest soon, and Jesus would hold your hand tight on this rocky portion of your journey.

Extraordinary Blog Post! (EOBP)

2010-10-13T13:01:00.003+08:00

"All the ways of a man are pure in his own eyes, but the LORD weighs the spirit. Commit your work to the LORD, and your plans will be established"
Proverbs 16:2-3

Speaks super to me.

And I pray for you that your faith in times like this, not just in God but also in yourself, will shine forth like gold. (Job 23:10)

But it doesn't remove my regrets of what I dragged you into. Yet God turns weeping into rejoicing. What say you? =)

"God weeps with us so that we may one day laugh with him."
— Jurgen Moltmann

The line between intimacy and friendship...

2010-10-12T21:31:00.004+08:00

...has been sorely challenged by such a recent friendship. Sorely, because it just hurts me so much that I know nothing about something that seemed so clear in my head.

Fears that emerge; bruises that need time to heal; regrets that cannot be quelled; but there are lessons that can always be learnt.

"Your words and action must match..."

...will just haunt me till the day I die.

I really just wish to give up. Live a simple life in my comfort zone. But the LORD just doesn't spare me. He has told me of the opportunities in life not to shrink back: to really grow up into a man and be ultimately found faithful.

My heart just wants to give up. It sends my mind into turmoil. Negative thoughts like my illness that make me think I shouldn't risk it, that I am not capable. That it will derail my life again.

Even after all these, I still don't know the steps to take from this day on.

A general conclusion could be this: The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom (Prov 1:7), then carry on seeking God in everything you do to hone wisdom. Accept instruction and discipline from the LORD and His agents. Amen to this, for me.

2010-10-10T01:39:00.003+08:00

Wish I could get through to you. Right now. So many things I want to explain, but you think its me getting defensive and self-justifying. It's hard to accept that I really need to learn a lot about relationships huh? And you know I have never been in one. And that I don't know things. Even after me apologizing. Yes I know I hurt you. But you just refuse to accept that I didn't mean to. Just saying my idea sucks. And it just stops there. Like a death sentence. And I still don't know HOW I hurt you. You keep saying I hurt you a lot. But I just hold back what you have done to me. Just so it wouldn't affect you further. And you find it so easy to make me guilty. Well maybe I should tell you what you have done to me here. I was preparing myself for a relationship for so long just to find that special girl. And now all I think about is my inadequecies in handling a possible one. Just cause you also shattered my confidence. Just like that. Confidence to be able to handle one. You exposed. Exposed and magnified my fear of possibly getting into one. And really made me think. Think if the gift of singleness is really what I have just cause I don't have what it takes for a relationship. Or to handle someone like you. Your flurry of sentences. Shooting like a machine gun. Line after line. As if on impulse, without restrain, without care. Makes me wonder - are all girls like that? Yeah this is an emo post. I might change, I might not. I might get over it, I might not. But this is the fact. Even without getting into one, and within such a brief time, you have already changed my whole mindset. My emotions are numb, and have been numbed for so long. But when they come, boy do they come. But I'll be alright. I will still live well. So much to do. Why is a relationship even a default now? Yet I know I will find myself, as I have over the past days, swinging between being convinced that I will be better off single and protecting myself from hurt, and being more hopeful that a relationship is worth the plunge. And you won't see this, at least in a long time to come. I'm sure. If you do, you were probably meant to read this.

...

2009-12-13T01:29:00.001+08:00

Grahh I give up blogging :S:S

200th post - My Personality Disorders

2009-05-31T03:51:00.001+08:00

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

I m simple-minded... I think... Wait am I thinking?

2009-04-11T20:45:00.003+08:00

[Ok just now I wrote like about 4 sentences... then here I am re-typing them. I suddenly had inspiration to write a lengthy post about why I think I am simple-minded. But then all the thoughts (many thoughts) were so messed up that they just collapsed and now I really dunno what to write.. Hope I would be able to write more next time. Actually its ironic really. I am not content because I am so simple-minded. I don't plan and set goals, I don't dream dreams, I don't think much. So I am learning to be content in being simple-minded. IRONIC!! Why am I even thinking that I am simple-minded. Thats not simple at all! Simply stupendous]

Godliness with contentment is great gain

2009-04-02T21:26:00.001+08:00

Be content Max! =( You have a God who hears you, Jesus who loves you, the Holy Spirit within you, and the whole of heaven ahead of you!

Signs

2009-03-19T18:03:00.002+08:00

I am damn lazy to blog. Heres another nice short film I would like to share with everyone!

Validation

2009-01-02T22:15:00.002+08:00

Thats the name of the following short film. If you have a good 16 minutes to spare, then you must watch this! A really feel-good happy and well-taken video that won many awards at film festivals.

Sad

2008-12-29T21:59:00.003+08:00

I just visited the blogs of 2 friends and it suddenly made me feel so sad. Friendships that have soured due to my actions. I know that I will never be able to feel once again the same warmth from them which I felt before. I pray to God that the number only stops at 2. I know that time and consequences are irreversible...

Inspiration

2008-12-25T23:24:00.001+08:00

Here

Motivation

2008-12-13T21:12:00.001+08:00

haiz

2008-10-04T01:51:00.000+08:00

haizz this will be my future if i carry on eating like this..

self control self control self control

2008-10-03T00:22:00.002+08:00

oH nOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

I NEED MORE SELF-CONTROL!! haiz fancy myself eating macdonalds at this time of the night... really couldn't resist the urge. so FATTENING

also had spending sprees recently.. i can't take it anymore!! I NEED TO have self-control man shit.. looking at inflation nowadays im also worrying now whether i will have enough money to get married decently next time.. sigh..

need to save more money...

help... im so wrecked with guilt

starting roarrrr

2008-09-29T16:00:00.001+08:00

on the actual day... luckily there was no rain tho the sky was overcast

terrible F1 accident

2008-09-27T02:24:00.002+08:00

oh my.....

quite gruesome... scroll down if u wanna see...

haha.. jokes aside.. nvr expected i would be quite geared up for this F1 weekend! on thurs i went with jamie to the singapore flyer... second time i went... first time was with my dear cousin josh! couldn't take very nice pictures up there... lousy skills.. but could still witness all the intense preparations for F1.. late night crew preparing the roads etc etc..

pit grandstand (where i would be)

skyline (with reflection of glass)

king of the roads!!

whee then came friday today the first day of the F1 weekend!

lanyard pass

entrance

ferrari merchandise shop..

there were many many other merchandise.. all so expensive! blood sucking.. shirts ranged from $70 to $200.. i guess its all branded ^^

nice flyer as the backdrop of the pit building

im sitting right in front of lewis hamilton's pit!

waving of the red flag: stop the race!

me!

haha... the paper says "do not feed cameraman, dangerous creature"

me with a ferrari (?) zooming at 270-ish km/h past me

wooo the cars were so loud like aeroplanes! the ear plugs were hardly enough... i dared not remove them... i managed to get to within 1.5 metres away from the cars man..!! damm scary! only word to describe it is sonicboom

the atmosphere was quite exhilarating at the grandstand... then walking around the place could see all kinds of people.. the locals.. the ang mohs.. the high class people.. SPGs.. and quite a lot of pretty girls!

here are the videos. the best videos that i took... i took really a lot.. i couldn't capture the cars with my lousy camera only a video could do them justice

this is the sonic boom...

then some nice cornering

and finally a pit stop practice by mclaren mercedes!

and that, my friends, concludes day 1......

laze the daze away zzzz

2008-09-24T14:33:00.002+08:00

1 more month of my 2 months MC to go! cos i recently had surgery on my spine to correct its crookedness... now im straight and not gay anymore hurray.. but theres this long scar on my back. i guess it should be kind of cool like a battle scar o.O i did not accomplish anything this month.. i guess the coming month will be the same. i guess thats characteristic of me.. never having the drive or foresight to accomplish anything... always lazing around. i also realize i don't have a passion for anything. well dun even talk about passion: i dun have the interest for anything! no healthy hobbies or anything.. i guess thats the saddest part. i wonder how im going to answer others when they ask me "what hobbies do u have?" but the past few months i did try to find out if i could garner any interest in any hobby... like looking up at the library.. surfing the web.. i did take up 10 piano lessons. and piano was (or so i think) one of my lifelong goals to learn. however the interest died off so quickly i just got plain bored of learning it, sigh..

well on to happier things that make me happy...

well talking about race queens.. i will be watching the singapore F1 with grandstand seats on Fri (training day) and Sun (actual race).. hurray! all thanks to jamie.. watch out in this space for photos and videos! :D

change

2008-07-18T18:54:00.005+08:00

some say the only constant in the world is change

i guess thats really true... i find that it is in this period of NS that i have really changed a whole lot.. don't know for better or worse. actually i am tempted to blame it on my bipolar disorder that caused my depression that made me such a quiet and subdued person now. from a person previously quite full of ideas i have become so empty and lacking of energy to do anything at all now.

the illness that in my manic and delirious periods made me so 'high on drugs' that provided me with so much happiness i could literally burst, but in my depressive periods plunged me into darkest despair with life. the illness that in my happy periods inspired me with so many crazy and wacky out-of-this-world ideas and inspirations that made my head spin with delight, yet left me with oppressive and negative thoughts after the happiness subsided. the illness that in my crazy periods let me experience such a spectrum of feelings, yet left me feeling void and empty inside after that. unfortunately(or not) the happy and delirious periods come and go in a matter of days but the dark periods lingered on for so long
but really thank God for shortening the dark periods for my sake.

then one more thing.. i have been mulling forever about this worsening relationship with a dear colleague friend since dunno how long.. hai dun really know what went wrong.. maybe we don't share the same values.. or i have really taken him for granted perhaps. perhaps i said too many things to piss him off at the period when i was quite high and full of ideas in my semi-relapsed state. really pray that our relationship will get better with time. I really don't know what to do to make it better. first time falling out of relationship with a friend... really hurts and sucks

hai time to take my antidepressant medicine!

2008-03-01T13:32:00.002+08:00

depressed me...

2008-02-28T18:09:00.002+08:00

when will this dark cloud above me

pass me by

back homeee

2008-01-20T10:20:00.000+08:00

phewww the world is not spinning round my head again now...
everything is under control!!

just came back from hospital cos they warded me for like close to 2 weeks darn! apparently at that relapse i wasn't myself and was so glued to the computer and out of my mind and got irritable at everyone in the night that my parents tricked me the next day into going to hospital... i really "shen jing bing" but yet "sha" or "blur" at the same time. seems like i only remember the last week or so in NUH. prob in a daze for the 1st week... i think my consciousness and subconsciousness or sanity and insanity are grabbing for attention ... arrr... but its much much better im really missing work and my colleagues and friends. staying in the hospital was rather boring a bit apprehensive about making friends too cos they all have their own more severe problems but still did make some friends in the end. oh going back in at 8pm today darn! just a sunday home leave... oh ya have to say a big sorry to friends who are worried for me... darn.. i my bipolar case is bipolar in everything.. i think im like a little baby and yet still like an adult (i hope) making everyone worried. but no worries i really don't expect any more relapses with medication and START exercising. if i get busy and down to work proper at my camp also better worry about admin work stuff better.. if i really got MC then must occupy myself fruitfully loh! hurray to full recovery!! =)

Christmas Advent

2007-12-03T22:42:00.000+08:00

My office just had LOADS of Christmas decorations put up today, what a pleasant surprise! Nicely reused every year and passed down the generations. Seeing all my office friends come around the Christmas tree reminded me what a big festival thats coming up on the 25th Dec. Its so huge that non-believers around the world also share in the joy which in all its rightfulness belong to believers. After all Christmas belongs to Christians, the same as how Deepavali belongs to Hindus and Chinese New Year belongs to the CHINESE!!! No doubt it is much of the commercialization of Christmas (and its placement in the calendar!)that causes it to be huge and so attractive in secular society, but surely there was much worth and potential since its humble beginnings that made people want to celebrate Christmas and eventually "cash in" on it, right?

Celebrate, and celebrate it well! Christmas is deserving to be celebrated by believers and non-believers, because Baby Jesus came in the manger to the world, FOR the WORLD! However, I just learnt this weekend about the way Christians celebrate Christmas differently.

Thus I decided to want to start a personal journal to reflect in Advent - the weeks leading to Christmas - and eventually continue on after Christmas. Then decided on journaling on my blog if not I have nothing much to blog about!

The celebratory mood is underscored by deep reflection on WHY Jesus came. Believe me when I say this approach by Christians is not just to make this seemingly frivolous festival more MEANINGFUL and SOLEMN and SPIRITUAL. This is the RIGHTFUL approach. Rightful meaning the approach underscores the true origin of Christmas - it is not something made up by Christians over time since coming up with this festival to celebrate Jesus' birthday.

Consider this: Jesus' statement about himself that "...the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many." - Matthew 20:28

It simply means Jesus did not come to earth just to be that magical chubby baby admired by the shepherds(and animals) in the manger. He did not come just to be a wise Teacher, to show the Christmas spirit of giving or to teach about doing good. He did not come just to perform miracles in healing the lame and blind and the sick. In the words of "[giving] his life as a ransom for many", He was born of Mary, He came down from His heavenly throne to earth in order to purchase us over from death at the cost of the excruciating process on the cross. Hallelujah!

It means Baby Jesus' birth was already planned by God for that death on the cross. And so to Christians, Christmas is not Christmas without Good Friday and Easter Sunday. And so here I am trying to make sense of it all in my head and putting it down in blog in words. We can never appreciate too much of the importance of festivals. My next proper journal will be titled "God became man".

For now I better sleep before my mum scolds me (esp after contracting dengue which she thinks is because I sleep late).

Just some things..

2007-11-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

This is a damm cool present from jamie liz & emerson.. tho it stinks =X yep at first glance one would probably think terrapins.. well i did... jumping up and down exclaiming it must be terrapins (cos they smell...) but its actually 4 crabs! 2 red ones and 2 (now 1) black ones. the red ones are super active and always getting into a scuffle with each other. the red ones seem to be playing dead all the time =/ maybe the red ones have been boiled once and learn to appreciate life..

mm i foresee deep-fried soft shell crab with cereal...

next up is...

WOOT! coolness redefined! this gothic.. gloomy theme so common & cheesy in so many chinese music albums lol... but TOO BAD cos FAYE is in it, its cool! i unintentionally got my bro to buy it.. cos i was in a music shop and asked him if he wanted it... well thought he likes FIR too!

Not bad! getting someone to buy it for me takes the guilt away tt i m wasting money!

now this is quite a perplexing picture... i merely held the cup against the mirror! cool stuff.. from jloe, thanks! my office pals kept asking me to open, so eager to see my reaction.. geez tho it was quite easy to figure out haha, i was so prepared...! anyway im so accustomed to cockroaches in my house already :D really neat trick but i DARE NOT play this trick on anyone... i.e. offering opaque coffee in this cup to others then watching them drop the cup to smithereens...

this cute little thang is from Ms Jennifer, thanks!! i really like the ordered arrangement of the six balls. weird me.

this is from darling marcus LOL.. really nice belated surprise! he said its to fit the ipod nano i won.. but oops i dun have it le =X

this hillsong live worship dvd is from my Cuz (read: cousin) Garry! really really sweet surprise =D tho it was not meant as a birthday present per se.. but i was really looking for some live hillsong videos (HIGH QUALITY not youtube) on the net to no avail... yesss indeed it will be refreshing.. must watch it all at once soon!

ohhh yes now to the impt stuff... this present is from someone really really special, Someone i can't even begin to describe!! =)

I got it for $3.95 at Mini Toons. so useful to whack my back aches away yeah...!

Yep also got this for myself... so many nice songs i like in here wooo.. 3 CDs for 1, sweeto!

Great Week...

2007-11-12T17:06:00.001+08:00

Yepp this week was indeed quite awesome.. with 2 days of slacking in a course... seeing my boss for only half a day for the whole week!! =D and today's an off day.. whee...reality shall sink in tmr.. oops..

Picnic@West Coast!

what an awesome time of catching up with 7C! =) woke up early in the morning to prepare stuff and it was drizzling - the kind that would last for REAAAALY long - THANK GOD the weather was so good in the later morning!!

beautiful expanse of grass

The breeze was always so cooling... the rain clouds looming in the sky shielded us from the otherwise scorching sun... beautiful!

cheese!(literally)

professional indeed

my newly bought frisbee wouldn't even last 10 mins at the park in the hands of my super garang classmates =S

woo sweet of jamie liz and emerson to surprise me with a cake... in cahoots with my class i say!!! felt kind of bad when ppl say i didn't look surprised :P well i half-expected JAMIE would pull off a stunt like this.. and that time well i really WAS speechless.. haha... thanks so much! n to 7C for coordinating it too.. esp Celeste who was more or less the contact point...

brilliant... liang cheng tagged this as "jingsheng's secret recipe of cheng2pi2 and guava!!!" in facebook.. couldn't have said it better!

we were attracting some lightning bolts haha...! Thankfully God doesn't answer our prayers immediately right? ;)

dang man what an awesome time... we mus definitely have an authentic picnic like this again.. the ingredients must be fine weather... nice expanse of grass... NO soft drinks hah! must remind myself to get backup frisbees... and maybe go fly kite

after that went to clementi arcade with cel lenny dengsi joe liangcheng n bry... just spent on racing daytona & initial D =O

then went to jurong east with bry joe dengsi n liangcheng for.... MORE RACING!! well actually more for the stardust movie woo! indeed spent probaby 3 hours in all at the arcade :S

stardust is brilliant! perhaps because i haven't watched a movie in a veeeery long time =/ i like the story, the characters n the setting of the movie! sweet sweet story but could do away with the cheese =/ the star of the movie... (ahem ahem pun) is indeed so lovable.. her acting is so unforgettable.. the look of childish happiness when she sees tristan... oooh no more spoilers if u haven't watched it u better do so! sweet fantasy story.

"What do stars do? They shine."

screwed up hair..

Then had pizza with joe and dengsi... awesome way to wrap up the day... dumbdumb dengsi craved pizza like a girl (no offence woohoo!) jus cos hes going to brunei soon.. well in the picture u see 1 large pizza... it was yuuuuummmmy.. but greedy dengsi had to coerce me to agree to another regular pizza cos he felt his appetite will never be satisfied by that large alone! in the end we had to ta pao both home =( and left with empty wallets. perhaps this cuts it out for one of the most embarassing moments for the qn posed by jloe :S

oh yes on Fri went with my mum to a wedding of a childhood friend who I think i didn't see for close to 15 years! one of the best dinners i went to definitely... because apart from the ritual-like entrance of the bride&groom.. the cake cutting... the video presentation on the morning's proceedings - the usual teasing of the groom and his men by the bridesmaids... eating chilly.. wasabi.. singing.. declaring an oath to the wife... - then the popping of champagne, there was a super heartfelt speech by the groom himself.. and the bride was super emotional on stage too.. made my heart melt... so yup this is esp special to me! well not to pour cold water on all the other weddings i have attended really, they are all special in their own way, its only this time i particularly wanted to observe how diff it could be!

nice wedding table gifts!! with a personal touch by the bride herself in tying the ribbon =D
(cake n chocolate inside)

oops gtg now will prob put some pics of the presents i got next!

Happy Birthday to me!!!

2007-11-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

Yay... Thanks to ALL who wished me well... You will get it back twofold ;)

Didn't have much of a proper celebration today, but I don't really care much :P Everyday can be as important as a birthday! Only a great dinner with my mum in the evening, and the whole day was spent much on sms-ing on the phone ~.~

Life is good... life is good..

Can't wait for Deepavali Thurs, Picnic with 7C at West Coast Park! Hurray!

What a slack and great week this week is too ;) I spent Mon & Tues slacking in some security orientation course... Hai I think I will start to feel a little stress at work when I return... My job is such that things just keep piling up on top of routine stuff I am supposed to do... even my boss said I can never finish all my work, I suck at prioritizing!! The stressful part is when she asks me if I have gotten this done... gotten that done... when obviously I was working on some other stuff =S but admittedly the tendency is also to slack a while from doing work since they are not urgent... My fault! Indeed I need to join the Procrastinators Anonymous...

On to more delightful things, FIR's BRILLIANT song Yue Ya Wan oh my goshhhhhhhhhhh

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I am so in love with Fayeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Well esp now with this song =P Have sort of been a mini-fan of FIR since their first album actually... Yeah a mini-fan that makes ppl cold. I don't think I will consider myself to be a fan of anyone, just have a tendency to like their particular song(s) thats all!

But let me go again,

OHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

YEssSSssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

This song is so beyooooootiful!!! -bewitched- mmmm Faye's voice is so sexy and strong at the same time! I can't help being charmed by her sensual vocals in this song... the sudden turning of the voice... the nice lyrical feel.. the romantic touch of this song and the blending of traditional chinese elements this contemporary song... (hai i admit im really no music expert).... Wow put it together with the MV and it gets such a beautiful mystical flavour... FAYE so COOL and SENSUAL in this MV!! WOOOOOOOOOOoooooo!!

HooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Too bad I can't sing this song, I don't even dare to dream, can only play it on loop in my brain ^^

And someone tell me what the lyrics are really about!!! To me thats the most mystical part about the song LOL...

The Great Revival

2007-10-21T17:20:00.000+08:00

Well... the title speaks of varied meanings!

For one, a handful of friends have revived their blogs!! How coincidental like me...

Really looking forward to Christmas now, I think its a super meaningful festival for everyone, Christians and especially Non-Christians alike. Not to mention magical! Its definitely ranked high up there with CNY!

So... since so little people are tagging at my board (for whatever reason)... pls tag and tell me... What special meaning does Christmas have for you?

Possible answers I can think of... Spiritual reasons... "magical"(in inexplicable ways)... a beautiful occasion to wrap up the entire year... the spirit of giving... the festivities (like on Orchard Road)... the atmosphere of serenity...

Tell me!

Jesus.... The most exalted name...

2007-10-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

"I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh."

Ezekiel 36:26

Learning to walk again...

2007-10-02T20:45:00.001+08:00

I must say it is a great feeling of relief to be starting to type this entry out. However, it is not so much the re-opening of this blog, but rather the coming out of my own shell which I so quickly retreated into about 5 months ago. Now, whatever feelings of pride, shame or fear I have must go.

I think that I must have some kind of accountability for my friends, for their concern for me which i really don't deserve to say the least. It kind of saddens me now that my actions possibly made them lose that bit of... should I say... confidence, in the faith in Jesus which I so readily profess.

Yes, I admit I had turned my back on Jesus, on God. However, now I am convinced that He lovingly allows U-turns in life. I don't think anything is impossible for God to turn around...

All was well, perhaps even better for me spiritually about a month after I got rejected for Medicine, which honestly is my first ever major setback in life, especially my unpreparedness after that. I dare say it all started with seemingly trivial sin that led to my downward spiral into my own spiritual abyss.

Christians are familiar with this: Sin separates us from God. Now I am learning the truth of this the hard way, hope it sinks super deep inside me. Since June, the acts of little little sin slowly but surely grew bigger till whatever intimacy I had with God were just drowned out and seeped away. No more spiritual conscience bugging me whenever I gave in to the temptation of sin. The more I sinned, the more I couldn't be bothered with prayer or reading the bible, the more the Holy Spirit seeped out. I was on my own.

Then, almost uncharacteristic of me, all the negative thoughts from within just rushed out. All my bad personalities just manifested - and I gave in so easily.

I started dwelling on my failure to get into Medicine. I started cursing my stupidity for not putting more effort into my attempt at the selections. I sneered at myself for having too much confidence at that time, which is really really really true. In all my thoughts, all I had was pride that I deserved a place. I couldn't even be bothered to have a backup plan that after rejection I was lost. Felt that I was stuck with a place in Arts and Social Sciences in NUS which I so happily put down without much thought.

Eventually, my negative thoughts were just overwhelming. I dwelt so much on the materialistic side of life.

I was so filled with envy and bitterness that so many of my friends managed to move on with their life while I was stuck...

Friends who obtained their desired scholarships which seemed so effortless to me. Friends who knew what they wanted to do in life. Friends who enrolled in courses they have so much interest in. Friends starting the school term again, having a great time in orientation, making new friends. All I could think of was how miserable my life was, that I would just dread university again, enrolling in a course that I have half an interest in, start studying with half a brain left after NS.

And most of all, friends having a productive, motivated life so unlike me. I was also jealous of my guy friends in NS who seem (at least to me) to be motivated, while I felt I was rotting in HQMC. All in all, I just felt like a totally different person ever since I stepped into HQMC. It was just really hard for me to carry out conversations with people. They were really nice people, but I just could not click with them - and didn't put in enough effort to. While having a lobo(slack) job for about 3 months, I gradually lost my motivation to do work - I just wanted to skive, and I know I must have let my superiors down. Sleep was the only pleasure to me, even in the office. I lived for the day to pass, which quickly turned into weeks and then months. My passiveness with getting things done and interacting with people naturally spilled over into other areas of my life.

Personally, it is very hard for me to compartmentalize my life. This passiveness was coupled with so much envy that I had for my friends. To be honest, I was thinking so much about what all you all were up to, visiting blogs, even imagining all your fun and moping to myself about my sucky life. Eventually, it is regretful that during my beloved 05S7C outings, it was almost impossible to hide my true feelings (which were never justified at all). Sadly, most of the time I did not bother to initiate any conversations with my dear dear classmates, and barely showed interest in things. Just lost in my own self-initiated depressing thoughts. I think it was also pretty obvious to the class that I also lost interest in organizing class outings, sadly =(
I also stopped appearing online on MSN...

Wow, sounds like a shipwreck huh?

I totally procrastinated in thinking about university courses again, became lazy to exercise, and constantly put myself down with thoughts that the only thing i learnt in school was mugging. I find that I can't do so many simple things effectively at work. Its like what the Poly students say - Book-smart not Street-smart; IQ no EQ.

My nights after work and weekends were naturally mostly spent at home, trying to find some fulfillment in all the wrong places. Even indulged in stupid PSP games trying to find satisfaction, only to curse and swear verbally at a stupid Monster Hunter game which is so hard. The game seems like an analogy to the Godless life I led. Completing quests after quests in the game which grow in difficulty, carving different monsters and acquiring better and better weapons and armors, never being satisfied at any point until you complete it. The other striking point came here - completing it is almost impossible unless you have friends to join in to help you. That was really what I needed - friends. Yet I foolishly chose to distance myself from them, possibly even hurting some of them.

Needless to say, my passiveness to interact with people got so bad that in an Alpha course I joined (which is still ongoing), I would hardly contribute to discussions, and would sometimes hide in the toilet so that I would not have to engage in random chats that would leave me with awkward silences or just smiles. I just felt like living in my own world. I think my relationship with my best friend also suffered, yet he is still so good to me. He is the one holding this relationship together, asking me out and not being judgmental on me, and I feel so disappointed in myself.

Slowly but surely, I want to change. I might not have a dramatic recovery from the inside to affect my actions, but surely I can start from the outside first and by faith allow God's healing to take place inside.

Never underestimate the power of the devil, and the sinfulness of our hearts which so readily accepts what the devil, and the world suggests. I want to be more conscious of the battle in the spiritual realms...

On a more cheerful note, I am now especially grateful for my wonderful colleagues in Manpower Branch! =) in erm order of seniority, 3SG Joshua (woo IC!), then Ronald, Lim Wei, Tony, Wei You, Marcus, and Joel. You guys make my life in HQMC so much more fun and I am more motivated to work! =) Through some strange intervention after Joel joined us, we seem so bonded and the office is never a dull place again. Keep the silly antics and dirty innuendos up!

I can't rely on myself anymore.

Learning to walk again...

2007-10-02T20:45:00.000+08:00

I must say it is a great feeling of relief to be starting to type this entry out. However, it is not so much the re-opening of this blog, but rather the coming out of my own shell which I so quickly retreated into about 5 months ago. Now, whatever feelings of pride, shame or fear I have must go.

I think that I must have some kind of accountability for my friends, for their concern for me which i really don't deserve to say the least. It kind of saddens me now that my actions possibly made them lose that bit of... should I say... confidence, in the faith in Jesus which I so readily profess.

Yes, I admit I had turned my back on Jesus, on God. However, now I am convinced that He lovingly allows U-turns in life. I don't think anything is impossible for God to turn around...

All was well, perhaps even better for me spiritually about a month after I got rejected for Medicine, which honestly is my first ever major setback in life, especially my unpreparedness after that. I dare say it all started with seemingly trivial sin that led to my downward spiral into my own spiritual abyss.

Christians are familiar with this: Sin separates us from God. Now I am learning the truth of this the hard way, hope it sinks super deep inside me. Since June, the acts of little little sin slowly but surely grew bigger till whatever intimacy I had with God were just drowned out and seeped away. No more spiritual conscience bugging me whenever I gave in to the temptation of sin. The more I sinned, the more I couldn't be bothered with prayer or reading the bible, the more the Holy Spirit seeped out. I was on my own.

Then, almost uncharacteristic of me, all the negative thoughts from within just rushed out. All my bad personalities just manifested - and I gave in so easily.

I started dwelling on my failure to get into Medicine. I started cursing my stupidity for not putting more effort into my attempt at the selections. I sneered at myself for having too much confidence at that time, which is really really really true. In all my thoughts, all I had was pride that I deserved a place. I couldn't even be bothered to have a backup plan that after rejection I was lost. Felt that I was stuck with a place in Arts and Social Sciences in NUS which I so happily put down without much thought.

Eventually, my negative thoughts were just overwhelming. I dwelt so much on the materialistic side of life.

I was so filled with envy and bitterness that so many of my friends managed to move on with their life while I was stuck...

Friends who obtained their desired scholarships which seemed so effortless to me. Friends who knew what they wanted to do in life. Friends who enrolled in courses they have so much interest in. Friends starting the school term again, having a great time in orientation, making new friends. All I could think of was how miserable my life was, that I would just dread university again, enrolling in a course that I have half an interest in, start studying with half a brain left after NS.

And most of all, friends having a productive, motivated life so unlike me. I was also jealous of my guy friends in NS who seem (at least to me) to be motivated, while I felt I was rotting in HQMC. All in all, I just felt like a totally different person ever since I stepped into HQMC. It was just really hard for me to carry out conversations with people. They were really nice people, but I just could not click with them - and didn't put in enough effort to. While having a lobo(slack) job for about 3 months, I gradually lost my motivation to do work - I just wanted to skive, and I know I must have let my superiors down. Sleep was the only pleasure to me, even in the office. I lived for the day to pass, which quickly turned into weeks and then months. My passiveness with getting things done and interacting with people naturally spilled over into other areas of my life.

Personally, it is very hard for me to compartmentalize my life. This passiveness was coupled with so much envy that I had for my friends. To be honest, I was thinking so much about what all you all were up to, visiting blogs, even imagining all your fun and moping to myself about my sucky life. Eventually, it is regretful that during my beloved 05S7C outings, it was almost impossible to hide my true feelings (which were never justified at all). Sadly, most of the time I did not bother to initiate any conversations with my dear dear classmates, and barely showed interest in things. Just lost in my own self-initiated depressing thoughts. I think it was also pretty obvious to the class that I also lost interest in organizing class outings, sadly =(

Wow, sounds like a shipwreck huh?

I totally procrastinated in thinking about university courses again, became lazy to exercise, and constantly put myself down with thoughts that the only thing i learnt in school was mugging. I find that I can't do so many simple things effectively at work. Its like what the Poly students say - Book-smart not Street-smart; IQ no EQ.

My nights after work and weekends were naturally mostly spent at home, trying to find some fulfillment in all the wrong places. Even indulged in stupid PSP games trying to find satisfaction, only to curse and swear verbally at a stupid Monster Hunter game which is so hard. The game seems like an analogy to the Godless life I led. Completing quests after quests in the game which grow in difficulty, carving different monsters and acquiring better and better weapons and armors, never being satisfied at any point until you complete it. The other striking point came here - completing it is almost impossible unless you have friends to join in to help you. That was really what I needed - friends. Yet I foolishly chose to distance myself from them, possibly even hurting some of them.

Needless to say, my passiveness to interact with people got so bad that in an Alpha course I joined (which is still ongoing), I would hardly contribute to discussions, and would sometimes hide in the toilet so that I would not have to engage in random chats that would leave me with awkward silences or just smiles. I just felt like living in my own world. I think my relationship with my best friend also suffered, yet he is still so good to me. He is the one holding this relationship together, asking me out and not being judgmental on me, and I feel so disappointed in myself.

Slowly but surely, I want to change - with guidance from the Bible. I might not have a dramatic recovery from the inside to affect my actions, but surely I can start from the outside first and by faith allow God's healing to take place inside.

Never underestimate the power of the devil, and the sinfulness of our hearts which so readily accepts what the devil, and the world suggests. I want to be more conscious of the battle in the spiritual realms...

On a more cheerful note, I am now especially grateful for my wonderful colleagues in Manpower Branch! =) in erm order of seniority, 3SG Joshua (woo IC!), then Ronald, Lim Wei, Tony, Wei You, Marcus, and Joel. You guys make my life in HQMC so much more fun and I am more motivated to work! =) Through some strange intervention after Joel joined us, we seem so bonded and the office is never a dull place again. Keep the silly antics and dirty innuendos up!

2007-05-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

I don't know if I am facing a "mid-life crisis" so soon at 18 years old. I think I am meant to die by 36. Its when I sit alone in the park at night in quiet contemplation that something must be really wrong.

Now what I want is to make my parents feel proud of me.

All my life I have been so sheltered and protected, fetched to and from school, having cooked meals everyday. Yes life was happy and smooth sailing
I think there is little for my parents to feel proud of me for the love they invested in me.

I am really a shadow of my former self ever since graduating.

All my life I have been drifting along the currents of the sea. Never trying to steer my boat. Never plotting my course. Never stopping just to look around and enjoy the scenery.

160th Post

2007-05-23T19:39:00.000+08:00

Yes, my dream has really been dashed.

I had stupidly put all my eggs in one basket; I had my hopes up so high all my life that they crashed down on me so hard.

It was sheer stupidity and naivety on my part to think that such a simple ambition to me could become so hard to achieve.

Confusion, anxiety, hopelessness, lethargy, regret.

These five days have been a roller-coaster of emotions after resigning to my fate.

In Jesus I really have such a great Comforter and Counselor.

Luckily in intense soul-searching and pouring out to God, I probably learnt the most important lesson...

My ultimate aim in life should be to please God in whatever I do...

Lord help me... help me endure the stress of my NS life and help me make the right decisions in life.

Cutey Affection

2007-04-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

Appearances are deceiving. They grew up and started fighting violently. Humans shouldn't learn from them. Its good to stay young at heart! And stay simple...

Hieeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2007-04-18T18:31:00.000+08:00

To a dear friend: Sorry for my insensitive words that hurt you. The honest fact is I didn't know what I said wrong... and I still don't know after you told me...

Wheeee

2007-04-08T10:23:00.000+08:00

What a busy busy busy weekend! Busy everyday from morning till night! Looks like today will be no diff... Happy EASTER!

A Test!

2007-04-04T19:09:00.000+08:00

was looking thru my archives and saw my very first entry in which i took a colour quiz. now i shall try it again.. for fun lah hors...

Your Existing Situation
Unwilling to extend himself or exert undue effort (with the possible exception of sexual activity *-.-*). ~~Feels that further progress requires more from him than he is willing or able to give~~. Would prefer reasonable comfort and security rather than the rewards of greater ambition.

Your Stress Sources
Wishes to be independent, unhampered, and free from any limitation or restriction, other than those which he imposes of himself or by his own choice and decision.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Willing to participate and to allow himself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension.

~~Feels that he is receiving less than his share and that there is no one on who he can rely for sympathy and understanding.~~ Pent-up emotions make him quick to ~~take offense, but he~~ realize that he has to make the best of things as they are.

Your Desired Objective
Seeks an affectionate relationship, offering fulfillment and happiness. Capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Helpful, and willing to adapt himself if necessary to realize the bond of affection he desires. Needs the same consideration and understanding from others.

Your Actual Problem
Does not wish to be involved in differences of opinion, contention or argument, preferring to be left in peace.

somehow these color quizzes work for everyone... but must still take it all with a pinch of salt!!

Just a little poem

2007-04-03T19:02:00.000+08:00

nice poem i got in an email from jamie...

"When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting, "I'm clean living'."
I'm whispering, "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!"

indeed in the army i was backsliding like a lost sheep,
turned away totally from Him,
yet Jesus redeemed me back freely

precious as a gift

have u turned your back to Him??

Happiness!

2007-04-02T19:40:00.000+08:00

dats me sitting on my computer table!! can see my new psp on the left! hehz.... my dad gave me the psp and the miniature bible.. christine and mich gave me the grey bear.. deng si gave me the black quiksilver cap.. jamie gave me that blue book "the fear of the Lord".. and I bought the music n lyrics CD myself!

close up. i love the quote on the badge... bryan got that for me!

and heres a BEAUTIFUL gift i got today
THANKS a lot 07S7C!! 7C rocks foreva~!
we really didn't expect anytHING...!!

If you're happy and you know if clap your hair!

2007-04-01T18:48:00.000+08:00

Happy April Fools Day.

WHeeee!! Everyday has been an adventure since results day! REALLY not because of the results i can assure u that. today went to cel's church with dengsi and it was really such a blast... had haagan dasz(?) too. coming Good Friday im sure the whole of singapore will be looking forward to! nice long weekend for everyone =) tmr itself will be an adventure too, everyday will be an adventure! all it takes is the attitude!! and for concerned ppl and fans who might (or might not read) my blog, i do not have

schizophrenia

1. Psychiatry. Also called dementia praecox. a severe mental disorder characterized by some, but not necessarily all, of the following features: emotional blunting, intellectual deterioration, social isolation, disorganized speech and behavior, delusions, and hallucinations.
2. a state characterized by the coexistence of contradictory or incompatible elements.

nor bipolar disorder

n. A psychiatric disorder marked by alternating episodes of mania and depression. Also called bipolar illness, manic-depressive illness.

ppl who can't figure this out just TALK to me, people who can't figure out why im saying all these "weird" stuff just ignore it =)

quite decided with the path i shall take in my job liao...
will be psychiatry/psychology-social work (I DIDN'T copy u CEL ^^)

psychiatry deals with dispensing of medicine to cure psychological problems while psychology deals with psychological problems, as well as behavioural ones.
one is medical-based and one is more social-based. of course being a science student i hope to be offered the first one =((

but competition is tough! heard its a projected 3000 people fighting for the miserable 250 places. i have a feeling tt SG doctors are considered inferior to others because the gov is insistent on IMPORTING more foreign doctors instead of increasing the places in NUS!! argH!!! those who are aiming for medicine, lets prove them wrong. All the best, may the best men(or women) win. same goes for the dentistry people =))

Me Myself and I!

2007-03-28T18:30:00.000+08:00

"All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work."
-2 Timothy 3:16-17

The Bible is the world's best-selling book.

"Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? Likewise every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit."
-Matthew 7:15-18

I am a nobody like everybody who wants to show that Somebody can save anybody.

But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere.
-James 3:17

Everything good comes from God above, it is Man that sins.

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him."
-John 3:16-17

God sent His Son from above to die for our sins. It was good. It is good. It will be good.

"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity."
-1 Timothy 4:12

I admit, I am still 18.

"All men are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of the Lord stands forever." And this is the word that was preached to you."
-1 Peter 1:24-25

I am myself but God made me who I am, and who YOU are.

"If anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing, he deceives himself. Each one should test his own actions. Then he can take pride in himself, without comparing himself to somebody else, for each one should carry his own load."
-Galatians 6:3-5

Its hard explaining to others what happened to me, but I will try.

"Therefore I tell you that no one who is speaking by the Spirit of God says, "Jesus be cursed," and no one can say, "Jesus is Lord," except by the Holy Spirit. There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit. There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. There are different kinds of working, but the same God works all of them in all men."
-1 Corinthians 12:3-6

The Holy Spirit, part of the Holy Trinity with God the Father and Jesus the Son - it is like the wind, gentle and meek, yet has the potential of a hurricane. It does not seek to intrude into our lives and cause damage.

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets."
-Matthew 7:7-12

So my dear friends(especially classmates), and family, try not to listen to hearsay, try not to make your own assumptions and conjectures, but just talk to ME. Forever Max! =) I'm super free, living a good NS life now, and cheers to a good life ahead for everyone. Singapore is blessed! Jesus takes the center stage.

Still

2007-03-27T18:47:00.000+08:00

"Still, she is optimistic. She's beginning to understand more clearly the need to reconcile fantasy with reality and to learn through experience - her platonic friendships, the satisfaction she takes from her work, her efforts to create a pleasant and inviting home for herself - that fantasy can make reality better and more appealing and that she doesn't have to work so hard to keep the two separate. Once she fully accepts this fact, the idea of a steady, solid partner will no longer seem so threatening, and she'll be sending the crew of romantic pinheads back to the poppy fields from which they came."

Unit Posting

2007-03-23T18:10:00.001+08:00

Comd SAF BMTC wishes you all the best in your future posting.

Your Posting Order is listed below:

1. You are posted to HQ MC.
2. Your vocation is ADMIN SUPPORT ASST.

Hohoho excited. The HQ of the SAF Medical Corps. My favourite personal motto for it is "Far from my Home, but Close to my Heart", because medicine is my first choice after all! Heard that HQMC is a really really busy place (considering so many people in army wanna chaokeng hahaha!) Oh well will go in with an open mind and full of excitement like BMT. Other guys will be going to various other units too especially command schools.

Useful link for SISPEC people: http://sgforums.com/?action=thread_display&thread_id=98006

Useful link for OCS people:
http://sgforums.com/?action=thread_display&thread_id=62698

...just kidding for the OCS people, its not useful cos u just haf to be prepared to be TORTURED MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAA...... (to infinity)

Mr Bean's Holiday

2007-03-22T18:14:00.000+08:00

Mr Bean's Holiday. Non-stop entertainment. "Woohoo!". Watched it with my mum. Seems like I have so much time during my army block leave to watch movies, but its ending soon hah!

Hope the guys get really really good vocations for their remaining 2 years. Postings out this friday night 12am if im not wrong.

Hope the girls don't work too hard now and stress themselves out physically and mentally, you get to work for the rest of your lives (maybe until ur married, hopefully ^^)

Hope everyone goes all way the way to pursue what they want best, especially university application and scholarships. JIAYOU. Scholarship or no scholarship, nevermind, whats most important is your attitude in the real working world which will make or break you.

Everyone, 加油!!

Music and Lyrics

2007-03-17T23:34:00.000+08:00

This morning I watched this rather heart-warming and feel-good movie. Or so I thought. So amusing to find myself being entertained by the many quirky comments and the brilliant acting by Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore (WOO!!). And yes, I thought it was a feel-good movie, but actually it had more serious undertones in the story. Now I shall think more when I watch movies ;)

No spoilers here, but you should watch the movie yourself to immerse in the love story and the brilliant music composed. I went out of the theatre and bought the soundtrack immediately.

The idea that stuck so much to my head the whole day was the analogy between music and love between a couple (preferably guy-girl of course). When we meet our crush, the first impressions, the outward appearances of him/her, his or her actions to others and to US are like the melodies of songs- they attract us instantly, they make us think about them all the time - for a period of time. The melody, however nice, is meaningless without the lyrics which accentuates the melody itself. Hence, only by understanding the lyrics can we appreciate the song better. We may love a song for a moment in time (like listening to the soundtrack of "Music and Lyrics" in my case), but for a song to be personally meaningful in our lives at all times (Songs like Eric Clapton's Tears in Heaven, Christina Aguilera's Beautiful for instance), we must have a personal connection to the song. The striking parallel drawn with a couple's relationship comes here, physical attraction is only secondary.

The more realistic inspiration from this movie came recently to me. I borrowed this book called "Venus in Spurs" which aims to dissect "THE SECRET FEMALE FEAR OF COMMITMENT OR WHY YOU HEAD FOR THE HILLS WHEN LOVE COMES TO TOWN", a book specially meant for WOMEN. You see, a man's ultimate aim is to get into a woman's ~~body~~ mind.

The blurb reads "Do you sit up late at night and dream of the perfect man, only to bolt for cover when he finally shows up at your door? Are you someone who suffers from perennial attraction to unavailable men - married or geographically challenged? Do you wonder if someone more compelling than your current beau is waiting just around the corner? If so, commitment-phobe, stand up and be counted"

How true is it that women fear commitment? I know of guys who feel that too. Guys have extreme ends, the sentimental ones (like me, so DUH right) and those who are 花心。 But girls generally (as far as i feel) have commitment phobias because they are afraid of things they cannot control - guys, which is true. It takes two hands to clap, true, I am not being sexist here. Love is fragile yet strong. It involves putting yourself in a vulnerable state to be hurt, manipulated, shattered by someone you are devoting your life to, yet it gives you hopes of EVERYTHING you could ever ask for emotionally.

In my interpretation of the show, the lead actress Sophie (Drew Barrymore) struggles between living out her fantasy love story and a realistic one, balanced delicately by Alex (Hugh Grant). She is the story of many girls today, I feel. Girls wish to find that PERFECT MAN, while guys wish to find that PERFECT submissive GIRL. Some girls wish to be swept by their prince charming off their feet, but they should realize that they must put their two feet back on the ground, and that their prince have a job to do - to be regarded as fit to be a future king.

In short, I feel that love is a complicated but beautiful thing. Its like owning a pet, it takes a lot of responsibilities, but its rewards are huge. Love between a man and a woman is something that should not be our priority in our life at this point for me and my peers, but should be pondered upon, and appreciated as it is created awesomely and powerfully by a loving God. I must also add that sex is also a beautiful thing in God's eyes, it is man who sins and turns away from pure things. However, when true love comes knocking on the door early, we should also cherish it. Love takes commitment, but it does not take away freedom. It not only takes courages, it also takes sacrifices. It involves loving a person for his/her beauty AND flaws. Just like a song, you don't just love the melody, you don't just love the lyrics, but you love the entire composition. You love the person.

To end off, the theme song of this movie :

(WARNING: SPOILER VERSION ABOVE, NON SPOILER VERSION HERE)

WAY BACK INTO LOVE

I’ve been living with a shadow, over head
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud, above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
just in case I ever need them again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make through without a way back into love
Oh-oh

I’ve been watching
but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching
but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
there’s gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
and I’m open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping that you’ll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
and if you’ll help me to start again
you know that I’ll be there for you in the end

. . .

2007-03-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

honestly i just want to be me, simple me, its hard for others to understand but i will persevere...

Thanks

2007-03-10T01:13:00.001+08:00

Thanks for all who showered your love and care on me!
I am alright, do 约 me out! =)

...or call me, msg me.......

Blessed...

2007-03-02T03:59:00.001+08:00

in e words of hillsong:

SO BLESSED I CAN'T CONTAIN IT,
SO MUCH I'VE GOT TO GIVE IT AWAY.

MORE THAN I COULD HOPE OR DREAM OF,
YOU HAVE POURED YOUR FAVOR ON ME.

ONE DAY IN THE HOUSE OF GOD IS,
BETTER THAN A THOUSAND PLACES IN THE WORLD.

amen

sniff sniff

2007-02-28T18:35:00.000+08:00

wah jus now there was tis commercial about the high frequency buzzing ringtone for handphones.. which cannot be heard by adults, and which u can download by calling the number... then they demo-ed the sound on the TV... i rush up to hear but really cannot hear... oh nos! i wanna b a kid!

my hp!

2007-02-28T10:42:00.000+08:00

lala slacking at home got mc -_-
since i went into army i m always lazy to delete my hp messages... (fyi my hp is tt big fat n-gage! but the smaller version.) cos maybe i would feel sentimental and like to read and reread them in the army? o.O like of ppl wishing me well in that hellhole (or hell island) over there.. ahah nah just kidding... basically jus laziness, and the fact tt my hp cannot delete all the messages in the box(inbox or outbox) all at once! it can't, of course, until my wonderful bunkmate actually taught me how last week when he just bought the same n-gage (inspired by me). -_- it was a matter of marking all the messages and deleting the marked ones, geez how can i not catch that! wow now deleting all e messages is a breeze, usually its quite fun to see thru them one by one before deleting, well now i know they are all so vulnerable, i can wipe them all out now!!!!!!!!!!!! before my momentous time of emptying my hp of all the kind messages, i thought it would be interesting to do a survey!

currently 500(wow jus nice...) msgs in my "sent" folder
now the statistics!!

no. of msgs i sent, which starts with "Haha": (ok now im slowly counting)
ok not only "Haha", i must write down the anomalies too
"Haahaha!" ""Hahaha!" "Hahas" "Hahaha" "LOL"(hahaha) "Haa" "Hahah!"
79/500 !!!
thats 15.8%, close to 1 in 5 of my messages start with "Haha" (and its derivatives).
thats a cool statistic! and no im not crazy to be laughing while using the hp all the time
old habits die hard hah!

next!

no. of msgs sent which starts with "Hehe","Hehehe!":
10/500 =/
2%
and most of the "Hehe"s are actually sent to girls, for me i dun usually "hehe" a guy friend -_-

no. of msgs sent which starts with a face:
list of faces found, =) =p =P =X =( )= =S =D O_O

26/500
5.2%
not bad
for those who always msg me knows i always use faces =D
i love it to break the monotony of words, if u think its superficial well too bad! =P=P

some statistical problems encountered:
many many messages in my "sent" box are actually mass-sent one.. i.e organise gathering n stuff, but i still counted them in ... mass greetings...
plus! a lot of the "haha" "hehe" and faces are embedded within the messages! i have a lot of time now but no time to see thru the messages one by one =P
and ppl who msg me know i can easily send a single message worth 2 SMSes (due to too many words) mostly, but can go up to 5!

ok off to delete my messages, sayonara

LAlala not a time to be emo now

2007-02-26T14:39:00.000+08:00

wheeee first news on my homepage is A lvl results release on friday.. oh well i will just take whatever comes i guess... so much has been going thru my mind these weeks! oh well now i finally know what it is like to be growing up... breaking out of the shelter that i have been in for so long even thru JC! suddenly life doesn't revolve around yourself anymore. hmm such a simple sentence but it means so much! oh well dunno if its a good or bad thing but looks like i need more time to figure things out! no wonder ppl envy children for their simple-mindedness geez... and i think i can really appreciate having a simple life. i would say NS prob does make boys turn into men, in some ways! really depends on ones attitude towards things, and of course luck. and im on the better receiving end of luck i guess! how to sum up my mind now? really so much things i can't possible write down in a diary, much less blog it down! i sometimes wonder what my blog is for.. oh well.. maybe its a way for others to keep in touch with this guy called max. tts what i feel from secretly reading other people's blogs.. just reading what they are up to, being reminded of memories of the past, see how they have changed. other than that looks like my blog is really useless cos its so not reading-friendly haha!

steamboat with 7c on sat nite was great, really great to see some of my classmates.. i miss the class so much.. hmmm the bad part, tho i m not upset about it, was tt i was coughing n coughing wasn't eating much, literally wasting the steamboat money, but who cares it was to be with the 7c ppl! and then went to the arcade to play random games, including one game with 4 ppl as soldiers using rifles, haha the guys tested how well NS applied to the game, sad to say mine was horrible cos my gun was totally off the mark! haha must be hilarious for ppl to see all the botak ppl playing tt game. so obvious we were chao recruits. hmm i think i didn't drink enough water tt entire night, was coughing all the way home till i keep feeling like vomiting on my walk back to home from e busstop! obviously next morning fever liao, then get MC lor. first time attn C from NS haha! tho i did report sick before in camp. hmmm oh well im super thankful to have such an easy time in NS compared to other guys, but im definitely no chaogenger haha! hope all my guy friends out there will get good vocations after BMT, cos thats where it matters! i think BMT really fulfills its mission well, to give a positive first time experience for guys in the army. hoho but of course its to mask the fact that many ppl will have to endure thru shit in the many more months to come after BMT, so better to brainwash them first. of cos, its all abt the attitude, and i must say honestly tt singapore guys are a tough bunch! girls dun be so hard on them laaaaaaa!! jus from my perspective ;) my blog(and my experience) might make NS seem like its so easy and chalet-like, but my obviously the army is still the army, a professional fighting force, other guys still have to suck thumb and endure very very tough stuff both mentally and physically!! respects! nonetheless everyone plays a part,so dun ever think ur job is insignificant;) ok so i had fever got MC, can slack till tues nite, haha but my sickness seems like its chronic and gonna stay at least till after bmt! then my mum asking around friends and neighbours to try TCM methods, whoa im really touched! =) it seems to be working, at first i didn't have energy even to turn on the computer n PLAY(wow amazing huh), but now i tink my energy coming back liao! hmmm ok maybe time to upload the pics and vids i took at steamboat, then play some games to find my childhood back YAY!!

The NS Experience

2007-02-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh i have so much in my mind now i just feel like blogging it all out!! lalalaaaa going mad... maybe overdose on lozenges for my throat cos of the tekong cough... maybe its the medicine making me drowsy so im desperately trying to stay awake woooo! now i shall blog about the past 3 weeks yes! and my thoughts yes! so many things ahhh hope i dun forget any. well well where do i begin..

last weekend when i booked out boy was i happy... prob much influenced by my platoon mates cos we were all singing and laughing in the bus to pasir ris... oh yes i rmb the pride when i wore my uniform first time in public.. when we alighted then at this public bus stop outside pasir ris. then ppl(aunties,uncles,maids,children) just looked at us and smile.. ahhh the pride.. oh well might sound ridiculous but its true i think many can attest to it! in NS there are probably a few milestones whereby u have this surge of pride, maybe for some wearing the no.1 uniform, marching in NDP blah blah... yep.. just donning the "singapore" tag on the camoflage uniform! it kinda makes u feel warm and fuzzy inside knowing everyone is together in NS for the same reason - that "singapore" tag on your uniform yeah? defending our nation our singapore our homeland? doesn't it make u all nice and fuzzy inside? no? ok nevermind.. Haha... yep that was my first bookout alright. but when i came home it was as if i was already home the day before... nothing spectacular like i imagined basically :P probably cos i didn't really miss home or my computer much (wanted to get rid of the addiction haha!!) and that it was generally slack in the first 2 weeks yay! so i really enjoyed myself there... but then things started becoming weirddd yea... sorry to all the girls out there but suddenly i felt that i might actually become gay in tekong :O ok lah not so serious... just that suddenly lost interest in girls when i came back to mainland cos in tekong.. well... ya... yes yes there might be 3 girl recruits on that island but i wasn't particularly despo, i was rather intrigued! so yep thats one.. minimal interest in girls T_T another feeling when i came back was being quite LOST... as mingseng can attest to haha... and many many others i bet. its true.. ur brain REALLY REALLY rots on that island cos u just need to follow instructions and not think too much. the only things u need to think is maybe do IA or doing drill, test and stuff. just kidding... the tests conducted are quite no-brainer cos either they are conducted in front of everyone so u just repeat answers, or the sgt will just prompt u to pass it haha.. oh well other than that.. when u exercise u also generally won't think too much.hahaah... i also felt a little down on my first bookout because suddenly i had to start thinking again.. about my future too.. cos i was doing stupid application stuff, then i actually looked forward to more brain rotting in the army about 2 days later (see what army does to ur brain??) my slack time is during diving lessons (hehehe those in NS will know this) when i get to slack a lot yay! just laze on the bed, fan full blast, warm sun pouring in and dozing in and out of sleep with the radio music stuck in my head... ahhh its really the ultimate relaxation... thats tekong chalet for u. initially i was really surprised by the look of the tekong camp.. actually really looks like a chalet once u alight the ferry! i was picturing torn-down barracks all around and stuff... and not the nicely designed and organized school 1&2! hard to describe... u must see it for urself...! sometimes u won't believe its where the army trains lolz... its really tekong chalet. actually free admin time also starts super early in the evening for me most of the time in e 1st 2 weeks... i really take my time in the baths too LOL.. like a chalet.. free flowing water u dun even have to care about... really shiok esp after a sweaty day. really loads of free time there that i wished i sort of brought a book too haha( tho i don't read, so u can see my despo-ness) altho i did bring my bible! sigh i feel like my thoughts are all jumbled up i really dunno how to organize them.. so here goes i will just shoot off on automatic mode... oh yes somehow i felt very.. erm.. treasured by the nation to do NS cos we were simply issued with so many brand new stuff! its as if everyone's efforts in NS is really appreciated cos so much money is invested in us. Oh well not much compared to the total country's revenue lah of course, nonetheless felt like we were wasting all taxpayers money.. really really cool stuff.. even tho we are pes C and not combat fit, yet we still can experience what most of the combat fit ppl do, im really grateful for that! yup so we have our load bearing vest (LBV) and grenade pouch ammo pouch (!!!!) i was so surprised when i saw it hahaha... oh well i will probably use it only in tekong.. and minimally at that too compared to the pes A/B haha!! after BMT i can chuck it aside. for me 10k route march EXCUSED heavy load a.k.a FIELDPACK... wow how slack is that lah wheeeeeeeeee!!! ok shall not digress from my chain of command.. oops i mean chain of thoughts of NS... oh well i think this isn't really reader friendly.. im just trying to write down everything in my head now... since my brain is already so rotten.. how m i supposed to organize all these info... like GP summary? oh gosh.... ahhhhh ok.. where was I.... oh yes.... then i think the toughest thing we did ever was probably to carry all out equipment up to our bunks. which is at the 5TH FLOOR, yes the 5TH FLOOR! Me is taurus platoon 4 right at the top so poor thing right... one big green fieldpack and a huge black duffel bag, plus my own bag to carry up all at once... wahahaha but then i still did it and helped others too... those who genuinely could not lift the load were not allowed to take lift, but had to ask others to help.... i was actually secretly happy to be at the top floor cos then the sergeants will be lazy to check in on us at night! but i stupidly realised that the lifts are there for a reason anyway sigh. the other more impt reason was that at least i could say i exercised climbing the stairs..cos i anticipated pes C to be slack slack slack lol... and yup indeed it is... super welfare. my OC (head of company) is an encik/warrant officer, meaning he is much older than many of the OCs of other companies who are young commissioned officers! like they say, the older u r the nicer u get. yep he is really like a father to us all, really respect him haha! maybe even a grandfather to us. feel a bit sorry for other companies who have young (relatively) officers as OC cos they like to have fun torturing recruits ya? sigh. mmmmmm yes i must talk about the food! ah all these is not in any chronological order at all i must apologize! wait.. its my blog anyway lalala... ok... CNY yay! another surprise when every section room got 3 containers of new year goodies to munch on... WOW... so welfare for recruits. we are really pampered :P and each of us got two oranges to bring home on an early bookout for the long weekend! wad a pleasant surprise... yes yes i believe they pamper us for BMT because NS experience will go downhill for many right after BMT... lol.. anyway i believe its a lot up to luck whether NS is enjoyable for one. basically in BMT its obviously luck if u get a welfare coy, with white horses a.k.a minister's son in it, or in a scholars batch... for me so lucky.. super welfare coy cos of my OC ON TOP of my pes C status. wah chalet liao.....free lodging free food plus money to save up! of course i feel proud serving my nation too. ah which brings me to another topic which really inspired me.. that everyone in NS plays a part, whether combat or non combat fit! ya my csm told us that.. a lot of ppl, because of disabilities or problems or what (like me) who cannot go to high ranking positions and appointments feel sad cos they feel they can't contribute much i.e do paperwork, fill up jerry cans, stock-take etc etc... but it does make sense that everyone plays a part ya!! without logistic ppl, who will supply ammo to frontline ppl.. haha... so yep definitely everyone makes the SAF work together. if im not wrong out of the 500 000 total NS ppl including reservists and regulars and NSFs about 350 000 are combat ppl, wow which places me in the minority group who do the support jobs! so for the officers and all they can be garang and serve more of their reservist years, while those playing their role, albeit smaller but still important(like me), can follow the SAF acronym to SERVE AND F*** OFF yeah! ok back to the food topic, yay food is really good for me the first 2 weeks... shiok big portions i managed to finish, always had fruit, nice soups! 3rd week some days really horrible... char kway tiao which tastes like paper urghh.... some really memorable ones are fish and chip with a whole bucket of tartar sauce for u to scoop, and that huge carbo-meal comprising HALF A CHICKEN, RICE, FRIES, BREAD (3 carbo food for u there) plus super thick cream of chicken, and once it was with ice cream as dessert T_T. ughhh makes me feel guilty... growing fat there. today's lunch(possibly because of cny) is by far the best! the eggnoodle itself is already super nice, but overall its really 7notrump because there was curry chicken also, PLUS satay chicken, prawns, my favourite cabbage, then had black glutinous sweet soup and watermelon as dessert! wowwowowow 7notrump confirm plus chop and 3 years warranty!!! =D oh did i forget that tekong is really like a reunion for almost all the guys in singapore?! it came as a surprise to me when i was there tho, even tho its like DUH! -_- managed to see so many many familiar faces and old friends in there, really quite a cool feeling... looking out for all the botak heads to see if u recognize their face. of course my male (thankfully not female) classmates are there too yay! i have to say my classmates are a tough bunch =D esp elijah who is in NINJA hohohoooo... ya besides bumping into each other in the cookhouse, we also visited each other once in a while in the bunks.. esp mingseng bryan and junxiang cos their company is so close to mine! oh yes during the first soccer leg of sG vs Thailand we had free time early cos our commanders wanted to watch the match T_T of course naturally we could watch it too in the mess room. then the second leg which was more important and spectacular, it was screened outside our coy building using a projector HAHA!! the atmosphere was crazy really like a football stadium. and i know bryan and junxiang could look over with envy from over there wheeeeee... so yep overall the NS experience is quite cool... but of course its just the bmt period now and naturally its good.. afterall the BMTC vision is to like provide a progressive and memorable experience to induct new recruits, and i dare say it can really do the job well :D because after BMT the overall "welfare" stuff will drop like shit i guess.. hai what a cruel fate for guys who enjoy BMT and become super ambitious and nationalistic(e.g sign on, be officer) only to possibly get stuck later in a ditch and suffer and like i said, up to ones luck after bmt if one gets into a shit unit or what... of course SISPEC (suffer in silence plus extra confinement) and OCS (only chaokeng survive) will be tough but fun too.. but of course i can't go there liao! i would think im quite fortunate cos largely of the shitty combat units will be out of bounds to me if i were to be a lowly "man" (the other categories are sergeants and officers!), so hope all my guy friends' luck are good! every guy i talk to seems to be enjoying BMT life so thats good...! now i truly grasp the concept that NS (esp BMT) is a common experience for guys that girls get pissed off by guys who keep talking about it :P ah still nursing my stupid tekong cough its really quite baaaad... ah well... i also had fever once and it recovered right after i slept it off, only to get the sore throat/cough i am having now. and in my room alone already 6 other ppl had the same symptoms t_T fever then sore throat, wow so now i realise the potency of the virus in our little cosy bunk. 6 of them managed to att C and book out cos of fever, but not me cos i visited the MO doctor too late at night haha!.. anyway.. dunno what to blog liao.. really wanna play now woohoo!! to round it off...

"NS, the women don't get it"!!
=D happy CNY to all!

First post of 2007!!

2007-01-26T01:13:00.000+08:00

And im going to army in the morning.. the fate of all sg guys... wHEeee! cya guys! =)

http://community.webshots.com/user/draggy00

2006-12-28T18:45:00.000+08:00

oops... didn't realise tt my prom album was set as private..
uploaded 7c christmas party pics but not too many of them because of security reasons...!
have a Happy New Year everyone..!
im jus so lazy to blog here =P but shall blog in the class blog soon...

update

2006-12-22T20:05:00.000+08:00

whee christmas is coming, can't wait for the class christmas bash!
prom was over quite long ago, yeah let the pictures do e talking, such a cool glam night, of course it is my first just like almost everyone else!
class chalet was a blast too! a huge turnout, too bad we didn't take a group photo =( first nite bbq, fantastic job by those cooking the stuff man! i only know how to eat. that 1st day was just beach activities. i love the beach volleyball court! we had so much fun there! the sand was so so hot too when the sun hid itself we will play away with more energy.. and then some badminton in the court.. =X there was like no one else using the courts anyway. the badminton game soon degraded into throwing rackets into the net haha! the bbq lasted into the nite then and we were into ghost story telling and just discussions about almost everything! almost like a veiled truth or dare heh heh.. shocking revelations and scandals!! wow!! too bad YH missed those yay. basically the whole night went by with most of the ppl not sleeping cos the room can only have like 4 ppl on the bed, while 20 others have to make do with the rest of the chalet grounds. which is not bad. the bbq area was very nice and clean, the bathrooms were newly renovated too woohoo! so blessed... so like no one used the our own bathroom. 2nd day was rather random too, morning was spent trying to recover some energy, then lunch and ya! yh yunting joelyn zc jingsheng dengsi and me went to try the luge and boy it was fun!!! some ppl said it was slow but then we just tried it out yeah! turns out it will go as fast as u want it to go, and darn got niaoed by joelyn cos i really slowed down when the barrier said slow. hey safety first okay!

lots of full-sized photos from chalet and prom!
newly captioned after posting in class blog!

http://community.webshots.com/user/draggy00

also some videos i took yay! so fun

going to sentosa!

telling ghost stories... haha joelyn is so funny

ski lift ride up before the luge, the girls really screamed in there YAY!

oh i think i forgot about this one. taken long long ago. the official last day of school! o2jam...

merry christmas everyone! wow can't believe i endured so much just to blog, really its time to play now

lazyyy

2006-12-14T20:12:00.000+08:00

ahhhh its holidays now im quite free but im lazy to blog haha! class chalet at sentosa was simply a blast! i love 05s7c cos it rOx my sOx!! took lots of pictures, some cool videos, shall show it, very soon. till then, battlefield2142!!!!

lazy

2006-12-09T14:37:00.000+08:00

hai so lazy to blog about prom liao, tho i had tonnes of fun! maybe one day i let all the pics do the talking. i would rather play now yeahh!

Juzz One Night

2006-12-07T10:55:00.000+08:00

ahhhh theres so many things to blog about, and so many things coming up to blog about too! now exams over i should have more reason to blog, but to me blogging is like doing a gp essay... i will feel lazy and dread starting to write an entry, but once i start its quite hard to stop! im preparing now for harmoc chalet later, then monday theres the major class chalet WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
so yep i shall save blogging for when i return i guess! stuff to blog about... o well A lvls are just like that, right after phy S the guys went to battlefield lan!! for i would say 5 hours, and then miscellaneous games went on in there. its sure fun as hell!! must do it again and again and again! then sunday was stayover at liang cheng's house, with ppl like elijah, bry, mingseng, wenxi, sexyzc, junxiang. played crazy games like asshole/prostitute daidee O.o and NFS carbon yeah!! super super fun...... first totally relaxed period after exams. then the main purpose was watching the man u vs chelsea match where we saw LC's true colours o.O - RED. bwahahahaaa. oh yes we had delicious pizza at nite too.. amazingly saw me all the way through the morning! late morning = more battlefield2, tho this time its only 2 hours. i have withdrawal symptoms then a few days later i ended up buying battlefield2142 =Dddd so hurray. one of these days must gather with the guys again.

ahhhh ok time is really running out gotta pack stuff soon. i still got the ditzy glitzy ritz carlton prom to blog about! JUZzzzz one night! WOOHOO!! shall blog about it properly when i come back yeah... hope i still rmb stuff. i have to blog well about it to do justice to this highlight of the year!!

Childhood

2006-11-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhh its only now when A lvl is ending that i realise im not young anymore! ok not so serious, today is just a nostalgic day of remembering the nice nice cartoons that accompanied my intellectual growth(some people doubt it) i just happened to catch an episode of power rangers wild force today out of curiosity and boy was it stupid. can't blame them cos theres like over 10 series now and the weapons can only get stupider from the coolest ones in the first few seasons hehe... other stupid cartoons showing now include those with really really stupid characters, those that really act stupid to amuse kids. yeah but can't remember what it was. all in all they can't compare to those of yesteryears!! oh well its probably a matter of perspective (hai im so old already) yay tommy white ranger woohoo!! jason.. kimberly (WOOOO hot!) yeaaaaaa so fun and i clearly remember my brother suaning me last time for watching stupid power rangers haha.. the first power ranger movie is da best! i even got the soundtrack (my first music CD WOW) i shall put the songs into my ipod soon. i shall even dig out my old toys!! i have almost the complete set of the white tiger series and i can combine them all together =D hurray.

so yep all in all i am not young anymore = ( soon i will be having nostalgia abt my wonderful time in JC, ahhhhh. as for now i dug up(with much ease) the intro of some shows i really liked! im sure many of u share this nostalgia with me :P i rmb joelyn yh lenny dengsi and i were discussing it one day after school, woohoo!! ahhhhh im getting SO excited here comes my list!! youtube rocks!

in no particular order:

King Arthur and the Knights of Justice!!

vaguely familiar with the episodes, but i clearly remember the main guy in golden armor.. really cool and appealed to my rising testosterone levels =D

Where in the World is Carmen Sandiego?

AHHH i clearly remember this song woohoo!! very nice detective like story.. those 2 kids are my heroes! and i really thought carmen sandiego was DARN cool. i also had the PC game which was ABSOLUTELY GOOD!!! learnt a lot of cool history stuff and math in the process too, very very fun wish i could find it now..

MUMMIES ALIVE!!

OHHH YES I CAN'T EMPHASIZE ENOUGH HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS!!! by this time around p4 my testosterone levels were.... STIll rising lah haha this show is GREAT!! damn damn cool characters, the cat with the whip, the fat guy who had lots of armor, then the smart skinny guy doing potions and the main guy who can FLY!!! and their VEHICLES ARE SO COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL OMGGgg... i also clearly remember that the show is FUNNY TOO... the way the characters interact is so darn cool.... i think it was mostly NIAOing between the girl and the fat guy, then the skinny guy is always full of witty remarks. alright man this intro kicks ass!! the song so catchy, and that main guy's pose is so cool, i would say their transformation is even cooler than power rangers =DDDDDDDDDD HURRAY MUMMIES ALIVE 2 THUMBS UP!! I CAN WATCH THIS INTRO OVER AND OVER AGAIN ITS REALLY REALLY REALLY COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL NO SHIT!!! always looked forward to this show and got my adrenaline really pumped everytime!!

A little boy named Presley
found a secret out this year
that he was once a Pharaoh
when Egyptians ruled the world
and now some sorcerer named Scarab
tries to get him day and night
but Presley has four guardians
to protect his very life.
He has the Mummies.
From 1525 B.C.
He has the Mummies.
Protection for the new Rapses.
He has the Mummies.
They're hanging by the 'Frisco Bay.
He has the Mummies.
Protectors of the world today.

So Mu-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh
Uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-uh

He has the Mummies.
From 1525 B.C.
He has the Mummies.
Protection for the Pharaoh teen.
He has the Mummies.
They're hanging by the Western Gate.
He has the Mummies.
They're going to save the world today.
The Egyptian way.
They're Mummies Alive!

Ghostbusters Extreme

one of the "later" shows too in the same league as mummies alive, the music rocks gets me pumped up before each show!! i always caught it after chinese tuition at a friends house =D=DD very funny show like mummies alive too the way they interact with each other, and i clearly remember the girl's little ghost trap, cute!

BATMAN BEYOND

similarly another kind of beefed up version catering to raging boys!! this was a rather dark cartoon for kids haha but its absolutely cool!! batman is like for once cool and not wearing his underwear outside

BEAST WARS

ah i absolutely love this toooooooo!! see the pattern? raging hormones.. this is like a newer season but i like it better than the previous cos its 3D!! the transformers are like nice and shiny. i evne have the toy of megatron... i only remember the cool witty tigertron and the big orange utan optimus primal.. cool fighting stuff

REBOOT

nice 3D show once again.. altho i didn't know 60% what was going on in the story just the cool gadgets and the cute round and square robots, as well as the dog and the main character's hot sidekick HAHAHAHA.... reminds me of the matrix now. yeah. i think reboot was about playing games, like some random event that sucked people into these games in that world

Pinky and the Brain

geeeez everyone will know this =D damm damm funny woohoo!!!! love the song yeaaa... always tried to catch it before church

They're Pinky and the Brain!
Yes, Pinky and the Brain!
One is a genius,
The other's insane!
They're laboratory mice,
Their genes have been spliced!
They're dinky,
They're Pinky and the Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
Before each night is done,
Their plan will be unfurled!
By the dawning of the sun,
They'll take over the world!
They're Pinky and the Brain!
Yes, Pinky and the Brain!
Their twilight campaign,
Is easy to explain!
To prove their mousey worth,
They'll overthrow the Earth,
They're Pinky,
They're Pinky and the Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
Brain,
NARF!!

SPIDERMAN

yeAHH! another of those cool shows i caught before church

Animaniacs

ABSOLUTELY ZANY!!! nice nice niceeeee!!! i esp love the sega game WOOHOO!!!

Its time for Animaniacs
and we're zany to the max
so, just sit back and relax,
you'll laugh til you collapse.
We're Animaniacs

Come join the Warner brothers,
and the Warner sister Dot!
Just for fun we run around the Warner movie lot.
They lock us in the tower, whenever we get caught.
But we break loose, and then vamoose,
and now you know the plot!

We're Animaniacs!
Dot is cute and Yakko yaks.
Wakko packs away the snacks
while Bill Clinton plays the sax.
We're Animaniacs!

Meet Pinky and the Brain who want to rule the universe.
Goodfeathers flock together,
Slappy wacks them with her purse.
Buttons chases Mindy,
while Rita sings a verse.
The writers' flipped, we have no script
why bother to rehearse?

We're Animaniacs!
We have pay or play contracts.
We're zany to the max,
there's bologna in our slacks.
We're ani-many, totally insane-y,
(Here's the show's name-y)
Animaniacs!
Those are the facts!!

MIGHTY MORPHIN POWER RANGERS

wHOaa i absolutely saved the best for last.. i mean which kid can resist the power rangers??? (esp that pink ranger ehehhe).... woo i like this season best, not so much of the first one, because i have most of the toys in this season like i said! woohoo! i have the toys to form that last combined robot in the end yay! might take a picture of it HAha... go go white ranger! talking sabre HAHaha... cool stuff

the movie!! ITS MORPHING TIME!!

whoa this is the shit!! =DDDddddddddd ok im going zany at this time... oh gosh i always have this goofy grin across my face when i see these power ranger clips... lucky u guys can't see it. so any of u guys share my interests??? =D

EXAMS ENDING IN 6 DAYS GUYS!!! HANG IN THERE!! well it would have already ended for the majority by then yeah, just being nice to the minorities =D

Mission Accomplished.

2006-11-18T13:45:00.000+08:00

Finally IT is done on 18th Nov 1:04PM....

370 tries, 1.45 GB

Only some ppl will know what im talking about =D

Hurray!!!

Ahhhhh

2006-11-10T02:22:00.000+08:00

TWO MORE WEEKS WOOO!!!!~
-looks at time and faintz-
7C i love u!!!

Yay!

2006-11-06T12:39:00.000+08:00

Happy Bday to MEEeee!!!! Yes! can't wait for exams to be overrRR!!!

Cool.

2006-10-28T02:27:00.000+08:00

Something fun to do at home when ur sian of mugging! =)

. . .

2006-10-24T21:04:00.000+08:00

from Our Daily Bread:

I would be true, for there are those who trust me;
I would be pure, for there are those who care.
I would be strong, for there is much to suffer;
I would be brave, for there is much to dare. -Walter

such strong words to live by... nice.... and..

"Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God."
-1 John 4:7

= ))

DEATHNOTE 死亡笔记

2006-10-22T00:06:00.000+08:00

ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT
NEVER FELT SO GLUED TO MY SEAT BEFORE
IM NOT MISSING THE SECOND PART!!!!!!!!

jam

2006-10-20T16:49:00.000+08:00

yay! another inspiration to blog amidst all the mugging! wish i had more time to mug its really toooo many thingssss!

hmm i din really blog about my class.. i noe others have.. but it feels kind of sad to blog something emotional about the end of the sch year.. my class is really AWESOMEEeeeee yeah... tho i nvr blogged but i did do other stuff to make them feel appreciated lah so thats alll that matters! i think its partially also why our class blog is now quiet.. saddening to have be the first to blog smth emotional HAha..

ok so why is the title of this jam?! its cos i finally got the right tools to record o2jam!! all the stupid game recorders are like trial versions.. they either only let u record 30 secs or without sound. this time its without sound but i just added in the song in the background HAHA so SMART!!! yay enjoy!! =D

舞娘!

damm hard

ringringring by sHE!

could have done better but lazy to record again!

ahh hope u guys enjoyed it =)
u shall not ask me for the game or u will be addicted like me!

**EVERYONE jiayou for A lvls... do the best you can from RIGHT NOW... its never too late**

NS enlistment : 26jan

2006-10-15T20:28:00.000+08:00

woohoo! dunno why felt quite happy to receive this letter... cos i won't have to go in any earlier! its sort of 2 whole months to relax and play and train and whatever... maybe 1 or 2 less weeks for prom, harmoc and class chalet yay!!!!!!! get over with A levels first =P

whyyyyyyyy

2006-10-14T01:18:00.000+08:00

haha surprised to find that like hardly anyone blogged at all after this last day of school today. oh well.. i would hate to blog it down and archive these memories into the past.. for me im still living in this dream... i want to! no worries still im a mugger in my dreams

I want this for my birthday...

2006-09-30T01:53:00.000+08:00

in retrospect

2006-09-20T21:49:00.000+08:00

referring to the pseudo-political post 2 entries below.. come to think of it now.. my "fiery passion" whipped up by the events has now subsided.. and i think it is still in my personality and interests to say that im always on Singapore's side haha! if even singaporeans like myself don't stick to singapore then who will geez.. to think that i mentioned about singapore losing some reputation abroad, oh well not like it will not happen even if i do not post about it. i guess ishould not have only questioned and critised our government's motives but also the IMF/WB's motives. the crux is i think i still identify the most with singapore putting up the mighty preparations for this event only to be chided by IMF/WB (i.e made a scapegoat). there is some truth in that they picked us for a reason to quell demonstrators, and i believe the event is now running EXTREMELY smoothly unlike the previous occasions, and set to have the biggest impact! so right now the activists and critics focus on bashing singapore instead of the IMF/WB which they have done so for the past dunno how many years. indeed this might be a ploy by IMF/WB.. ahhh politics stuff is really quite a cruel game. i think this will be the true testament to singapore's effectiveness afterall, not just about its branding campaign abroad. so yes! inspite of our infant "democracy", it is no doubt that we are running smoothly as a nation. looking at thailand now we sure are very fortunate i guess, i can't imagine tanks rolling outside our streets!

wow

2006-09-19T23:19:00.000+08:00

wow just WOW!! its like a sweet little candy bar =))
24 hours of audio what THE!?!? my nano now can only play for like 2 hours now honestly.
but amazing.. apple is really da best! as much as i would love to support creative.. haha i think no one matches apple.. possibly never.. feel sorry that microsoft invested so much in their zune also.. and it looks quite obiang haha!!

oh i have one gripe about music..
i just want Y.E.S 933 to stop playing 千里之外every hour!! argh!!

tmr is the last paper, bio paper3!! all i can think of is plant and human sex now!! i shall go to sleep and hope for a good ~~dream~~ day tomorrow

something u will not see in the papers

2006-09-17T17:13:00.000+08:00

hai hai... ok so exams are coming and there is something that has piqued my interest once again away from studying. exams tmr. well not that i CARE. honestly its studying that steals our interest from other stuff. studying must not be our priority.. sucks.

so what is it that has got my interest not to start mugging physics at all which im quite determined to want to do better..? its actually making me have butterflies in my stomach cos... haha well its exciting and quite infuriating at the same time. all these stuff really make me wanna read up more and study the arts stuff instead of boring science.. hmm ok so here goes with what i have read on the internet n stuff..

hmm the core of all this mus be smth that we definitely touched on in GP (i emphasize touch).. haha even Mrs Chan does not tell us anything .. im really fortunate to jus see the stuff firsthand and make my own judgements.

firstly its our super world class police. no doubt im grateful for them for low crime and all that... really.. so much so that its pretty much safe in singapore. but what just happened is something so unbelievably a mockery of singapore, even i feel quite ashamed as a singaporean. I really love Singapore. basically its about dr chee SJ who wanted to use this IMF/worldbank period to have a voice against the gov and all.. his first gathering at some speakers corner was apparantly not successful so he tried again, this time with his sister. and guess what happened? maybe i dun have to say much in words. no prizes for guessing i doubt our dear straits times will never publish it. in my mind i have always knew that our papers are very biased and covered up and all that, but it really never registered at all. in fact this year i really read the papers enthusiastically everyday.. but being the stupid me as ever, here i am now feeling so boiled up that theres actually so much more thats withheld from us. ok let the pics do the talking.

they planned for a peaceful march to the parliament house

WOW I MEAN WHAT THE HELL. 30 BIG GROWN UP POLIECEMEN surrounding our singaporeans while the "ang mohs" just laugh their ass off at us. indeed they really do because its like reported everywhere in the world (foreign reporters and cameramen outnumbered singaporeans who went there to see see show) dunno who to feel sorry for.. i would feel embarassed if i were the poliecemen but honestly if its an order i can't do anything. its the higher up people there with their brilliant plan. sigh what is happening to our world class police.. their reason was to prevent them from committing an offence. granted its a good reason cos dr chee will be arrested anyway if he pulls it off, but this is really making a clown out of us all. oh well guess what this might be ur only place to see the pics cos no way in hell will straits times publish this. call me busybody or naive or what, but its really something that opened my eyes to the rosy picture of singapore painted by all the propaganda stuff gee.

first, heres reuter's one from yahoo
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Singapore politician plans prolonged standoff
By Fayen Wong

SINGAPORE (Reuters) - A Singapore opposition leader, who was surrounded by police in a prolonged downtown stand-off over the right to protest, said on Sunday that he would refuse to move until Tuesday's formal start of the IMF-World Bank meetings.

Chee Soon Juan, head of the tiny Singapore Democratic Party, had planned a rally in a city park on Saturday, followed by a protest march to parliament and the convention centre where thousands of financial big shots, bankers and journalists are attending the IMF-World Bank meetings.

But Chee, his sister Chee Siok Chin, and five supporters, were prevented from leaving Hong Lim park, near Singapore's Speakers' Corner, as about 30 armed police formed human barricades around the Chees on Saturday and Sunday, at times linking arms and pressing close to them to stop their movement.

"Since the police have prevented us from moving to parliament house, we are left with no choice but to remain here at Speakers' Corner. We will stay here until Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong gives his opening speech at the IMF opening ceremony on Tuesday morning," Chee said.

He added that it was important for the International Monetary Fund and World Bank to be aware of issues such as the lack of transparency and accountability in Singapore.

"Singapore has one of the best rankings in the world on control of corruption, but it ranks in the middle of the pack on voice and accountability, below much poorer countries such as Brazil and Botswana," the World Bank said in its latest report on governance, published on Friday.

It said "voice and accountability" refer to the extent to which a country's citizens are able to participate in selecting their government, as well as freedom of expression, freedom of association and a free media.

Chee had wanted to protest about the city-state's restrictions on freedom of speech and its widening income gap. Under Singapore law, public gatherings of more than four people require a police permit.

Throughout the night, changing shifts of police kept guard over Chee and his sister on a corner of the park.

Supporters brought the Chees and the other activists food and water, and the pair slept briefly on the pavement. Puzzled passers-by, among them party-goers on their way home, the odd cyclist and early-morning joggers, stopped to stare or chat.

AREA CORDONED OFF

British tourist Christopher Osborn, 27, who saw the stand-off as he walked by on Saturday, decided to stay the entire night.

"I'm astounded by the police preventing the legitimate movement of people. The manner in which they are implementing it would be classified as intimidation. There's a disproportionate reaction and it shows another side to Singapore," he said.

While U.S. Treasury Secretary Henry Paulson and other Group of Seven finance ministers and central bankers discussed the Chinese yuan at the convention centre on Saturday, the Singapore police were busy interviewing those people who had gathered at the park to find out who they were and why they were there.

About 200 people, including media, had gathered for the rally.

Police with video cameras filmed Chee, his supporters and journalists present for several hours. Several plainclothes policemen and women mingled among the reporters and supporters.

"Police are at the scene and are engaging Chee Soon Juan and his associates. We advise them not to commit any offence or pose a threat to public order," a police spokeswoman said on Saturday.

Soon after Chee arrived at the park with his supporters on Saturday morning, police cordoned off the area. Speaking through loudhailers, they told the crowd not to participate in the protest march as this would be breaking the law.

As Chee Siok Chin tried to walk to a nearby public toilet, police stopped her. Only after much argument was she allowed to use a bathroom -- in the nearby police station.
Chee, an acerbic critic of the government, has had several run-ins with Singapore's leaders. On Tuesday, the High Court ruled that Chee and his sister had defamed the Prime Minister and his father, Lee Kuan Yew. No damages have been announced yet.

from http://sg.news.yahoo.com/060917/3/43h7w.html
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hmm u want the singapore perspective? u REALLY REALLY do? http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/230827/1/.html
geez its literally not worth quoting here...

ironically around midnight that time a horrible gang attack in the open at havelock road left a man dead. the assailants fled. woo. and ironically too theres some double standard in the police. first was the entrapment of the gay guy to lure these would-be criminals to charge them, and now this minority reportish thingy to prevent would-be criminals from committing crimes! hohoho!! really so drama.. i no need tv liao theres entertainment here already.

but wait.. this is not really the only thing that singapore did to stab itself in front of the world

"World Bank says Singapore breached deal"
- Houston Chronicle.
"World Bank's Wolfowitz says Singapore backtracked on agreement"
- Bloomberg.
"World Bank says Singapore breached deal"
- Associated Press.
"Singapore has reneged on deal with activists: Wolfowitz"
- AFP.
"Singapore has reneged on deal with activists: Wolfowitz"
- The Nation.
"EU, World Bank urge Singapore to lift protest ban"
- Reuters.
"Charities threaten to boycott IMF over ban on Singapore Protests"
- Independent.
"Singapore Branded Authoritarian"
- BBC.
"Singapore Inflicted Enormous Damage to Reputation: Wolfowitz"
- AFP.
"Singapore IMF Activist Ban Slammed"
- CNN.
"Singapore Allows Entry to 22 of 27 Banned Activists"
- Bloomberg, September 15.

All these were koped and not my own.. found in a forum.. and yep its something thats in bold big headlines around the world. and honestly its not funny cos i was surfing in the forums and having all these stuff revealed to me that i was really excited to see what today's papers offer. well it was sorely disappointing.. of course can't blame the press .. i mean they must show that it the IMF/world bank has is going on well and stuff, which also cannot be doubted. only in page 12 of the sunday papers in the little right column was there any negative stuff, just about the activists boycotting us. well well even singaporeans like us are a little "blindsided" in a way.. looks like we must rely on the net for stuff now.. the deal is really so big cos even the world bank PRESIDENT wolfowitz(smth liddat) accused Singapore of backtracking on an agreement. its SO HUGE. i didn't read it in our papers at all. for the sake of Singapore i really don't think we should take it lying down. afterall im not against singapore but against what we have been so deceived by. the ministers better fight back hard or its gonna be so huge. to sum it up, the world media really just focuses on hyped up stuff (mostly negative stuff for sensation), as everyone knows. this thing about singapore's strictness and not allowing the protest has really gone out of control. OUR REPUTATION is really like gone into thin air just like that. everything backfired i would say. this event which we spent hundreds of millions and 3 years to organize? all the bootlicking of the foreigners and all will come to nought because the intangible gains from all these is REALLY the prestige and reputation that will attract others to singapore. honestly WILL the foreign press report on the VVVIP treatment we gave them? free designer clothes? thumbdrives? BMW cars? free internet access? pretty flowers on the streets and the exquisite salvador art? what about the social escorts of "young outgoing 20-something" singaporean gals we offer to them? NO ONE cares about all these. the world just sees that singaporeans are an oppressed and conditioned lot who just live their lives like that. on the other hand yes we may show to them on a micro-level singapore's beauty and culture, because the delegate's personal experience must indeed be wonderful considering the service and stuff provided here. but then billions out there watches this event through the media. oh goshh.. imagine all the money spent on all this only to yield possible disastrous returns.

in retrospect, i might have all these viewpoints and being oh so high and mighty justice-driven and all, but i doubt i will do anything much more to threaten my future, like any normal singaporeans would. but then guess why i posted this? there will come a time, guys, when we youths will emerge. come to think of it, its really true. the reason the PAP targets youth really stem from the fact that we are not so taken in by them anymore. we ARE THE YOUTHS of singapore. if anyone is to improve singapore (no doubt we are very very good already =) ), it has to be Us. and very soon we will have the power to vote and all. now i think i will really be more discerning about stuff, and more concerned about politics. hope everyone out there will too, if u have been already good! im very late on this. to think we are a first-class country and all the whining we see from the pro-democracy people seem to be more real to me now. bit by bit the truth is being unravelled that indeed theres so many rights that we don't have.. but then.. we might have the power to change all these.

and about DR CHEE.. yeah honestly i always thought he was a clown all along. since he was from acs i also often frowned on him for being such a shame (especailly against those rafflesians you-know-who) now to think of it, its just what the media paints him out to be. to think we laughed at him in our GP lessons. we were the stupid fools who got fooled by our high and mighty media. lets think rationally, is he really such a clown? apart from his "Dr" status that he is really quite smart, why is he doing all this? does he think he can usurp power from the Lee or something? its really a 100% no. ok, then why is he risking all these? for fame? glory? i doubt it when everyone is mocking him. its something that we youths have deep inside, that must be passion. he must be standing up for something he believes in, something his sister also believes in, but is constantly being squashed by you-know-who. plenty of respects to the government and all, but to see our fellow singaporean being labelled like that by other singaporeans... argh.. i feel horrible to have been super critical of him without any thought. what did he went through exactly? numerous bankrupcies and being blacklisted by normal singaporeans, given disapproving stares? why in the world would he go through all this and risk being jailed by planning that march to parliament? i believe we all must search ourself upon this. what kind of disruption is he creating? the most, hes making us more aware and come out of the shell that we have been so conditioned to build. if the police think he will cause violence like riots and stuff, wow they must be super kiasee. look at dr chee's skinny frame and nerdy frame glasses tell me what he can do.

indeed i dun know how much longer i can write about this. singapore has been in the news recently for the wrong reasons. sigh. its probably all the tip of the iceberg cos theres stuff like the TT Durians and peanuts. one more about our nation's reserves and all which i might be in no position to comment, and might not dare to, but i have definitely been reading. it has to do with singaporean's money. gee more bus fare hikes well done!

im still proud of singapore no matter what, our accomplishments, respects to Mr LKY, but its precisely because of all these that i also blogged this down. in spite of all these, its also saddening to see singapore being bullied left and right by other nations and foreigners (FT) too. welcome to reality. we are a little red dot, we have influence on others, but ultimately there is little we can do. i will try to treat NS seriously =)

ultimately this is only about singapore, theres also a muslim-western tension thingy. the world is quite screwed hahah!!
i got all my "enlightenment" from surfing various forums
http://sgforums.com
http://forums.hardwarezone.com/
no doubt some may say its the most absurd place to get info, but then what do we do? just read the straits times ah? for now, these forums is the most convenient to get info apart from other news agencies online. these forums might be filled with vulgarity-spewing and cynicism to the extreme (basically disgruntled singaporeans), but they really do have a point. a lot of thoughtful discussions there.. it has been an amazing read..

ah its raining and raining and raining. and who cares about the stupid prelims tmr. ahh typing all this is really a load of my mind cos i was just carrying too much in my head the whole time. i think if the gov were to see me having this kind of thoughts they will just faint and all.. afterall i m from a JC which is supposedly guai and from which guai students are sent on a track to be groomed into potential dynamic and vibrant leaders of tomorrow's singapore (read: PSC). oh well blame liberalism. its still infuriating that i have been so naive all along =Pp looks like all the tempting rewards and career expressway of being a government scholar will no longer entice me. i wouldn't want to do things against my own will in there. hope my future job will not make me do this either.

and so ends, possible one of my longest entries ever. remember, i love singapore and i love 05s7c!!

=(

2006-09-16T16:21:00.000+08:00

girls are so complicated... =((

i give up writing notes from female sexual repro onwards

oh no

2006-09-10T11:53:00.000+08:00

in reply to you, you jin. yes You, You Jin

2006-09-06T22:26:00.000+08:00

First update in a Long while, albeit not so encouraging

2006-08-30T17:05:00.000+08:00

to: Mr Tharman Shanmugaratnam
cc: Mr Ang Wee Hiong

Do you hear that? The trees are crying out, "Save us, and save your students!"

Regards,
Max

. . .

2006-07-16T16:59:00.000+08:00

Does anyone feel guilty of being happy? I do...

King of Majesty

2006-07-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

"When I consider your heavens,
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place,
what are mere mortals that you are mindful of them,
human beings that you care for them?"

Psalm 8:3-4

lalala

2006-07-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

class blog is stagnant.. my blog is stagnant..
hmm maybe will update with something that happened yesterday!

saw a primary school crush at beauty world last evening! it wasn't a glittery rendezvous with flowers popping up from the ground and cranes flying overhead or what. i just batted an eyelid and my heart did not even skip. she didn't even see me either i bet. but it was really interesting. i muttered "oooooh" under my breath straightaway. there in front of me was a bigger version of the girl whose image appeared so infrequently in my mind these past few years. anyways she is from a JC. a JC with lots of pretty girls i dare say. doesn't really say much about her anyway. i won't reveal anything else about her. yay. and no one shall know who she is!! its probably my best kept secret. yay!! SECRETS!!!

bump

2006-07-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

Woohoo back here blogging! I procrastinated blogging for so long though so many things happened.. all wonderful of course! Actually im usually lazy to do punctuations here but im typing it all out on word first! Phew expect it to be quite large haha better be safe than sorry! This shall be the official bumper edition of my blog entries yay! Such a fun period for me.. it’s a good post-block test period.. yet it ushers in another period of intense mugging for a levels. Admittedly I was still in holiday mood during block test.. o well results shall jolt me awake possibly!

So…. Ok my mind is quite blank now.. just blog abt what happened recently! Last fri was pulau ubin hike wheee!!! It was 9 of us with yeehwee being nice to join us for dinner allll the way at tampines and shop for miss lim’s present! (u will see why later!) 9 of us was lenny celeste joelyn mingseng jingsheng wenxi yauchuen dengsi and me (in order of increasing….. nevermind… ^^””) yeah it was a 1 hour trip there from tampines… fun bumboat ride.. with the wind in ur face.. mmmm.. I love traveling in boats and planes!

bumboat ride!!

I remember my first and only overseas trip… at the return trip I was damn as excited as going.. to china.. all because I could still be on a plane back to Singapore! Liftoff is exhilarating. So reached ubin got our bikes.. cycled tandem with mingseng! Tandem is soooo fun… and I think we looked funny on it! Competition on pulau ubin is so fierce man.. its like occupying the same niche. Like 5 bicycle shops there.. and 1 outright winner who was a newcomer with all new bikes.. pity on those with the old bikes almost impossible to rent out even if its cheaper.. I mean ppl will still go for the newer ones with WORKABLE gears haha… like celeste said its just life. And then when we were finished biking.. encountered the drink/souvenir stalls side by side.. competing to sell coconuts (delicious!) haha..

waiting for royal coconuts yay!

domesticated boar!

and the bumboat operators who got into a verbal skirmish when we were returning.. thus having to wait for more ppl to come so that both boats could have like an equal no. of passengers… hmm bumboat ride seems very cheap.. considering the frequency of passengers also dunno how they earn money.. but nevermind the ppl on pulau ubin seem to have simple life. Like the scattered villagers (if I may call them).. one even owns a boar! How cool.. speaking of boar we encountered some.. quite a highlight of the day. Was cycling with mingseng tandem.. and some guys ahead and behind us. Then suddenly there was some commotion I stopped.. the ppl in front dismounted and came back to watch! Actually one boar already crossed the path behind them. The path was sort of raised and there were trees beside.. basically there were 4 wild boars altogether so cool! So we managed to see 3 DASH right across our path.. didn’t even notice us .. dunno what was the rush but luckily they were not chased by something EVEN bigger which might hunt us haha! So it was an adrenaline pumping moment being so up close to them.. their sound is so damn cool too.. I remember the last boar is like half the size of the others like a little kid.. so it had to catch up with them. But damn were they fast. They did not even travel up the slope on our path.. they just jumped right across the path like wow… from then on nerves were a bit wrecked we just quickly moved along in case they came back hahaha.. evidence of nerve wrecking moments was our climb by foot up a hill to oversee the quarry. Apparently on e way up celeste and joelyn saw a frog/toad? Then they were like screaming or smth.. and the leaves beside them started to rustle like violently which led to even more screaming and joelyn falling down. Poor thing because it was all because someone (I think yauchuen who was in front of me) stepped on this long branch that shook the leaves. And there was our first casualty of the day.. apparently joelyn fell on her way down again =X poor thing.

One time near a beach there was this cute stray dog. It was so darn thin that it could bend itself to smell its butt. Ok so everyone was very amused about it.. cos they always think dogs chase their own tail. Yeah it was quite funny.. until it started sniffing us randomly. Ok maybe not so randomly just joelyn and cel who were quite unnerved about it. Such a cute dog mah??!

hey cutie cutie.. the dog i mean..
Next bigger casualty was poor wenxi who got “punctured” by a stone.. haha funny the way the word is used. Everyone claimed it was a puncture not an abrasion or what cos it wasn’t bleeding.. witnesses say it was a deep hole which showed some white flesh? I didn’t even know cos I didn’t really want to crowd around him.. darn.. oh and I forgot to mention who did it! We were actually skipping stones on the water at chek jawa… and that yauchuan threw it right at wenxi’s arm hahahaha! Comical… it flew off tangent or something! Poor thing. Chek jawa was our last destination at ubin! Quite a hazardous trail.. got past a construction barrier cos a worker nicely let us through! Too bad it was the right place at the wrong time.. high tide lol..

joelyn surveying the sunken chek jawa

but we still spent lots of time there.. it was quite peaceful and a nice place to hang out.. picking shells .. crapping.. exploring the shore (which was limited haha) and of course skipping stones. The other activities in the day were like lunch at the restaurant (which is really not bad! Too bad no photos of the food) and of course climbing of the hill overlooking the quarry.. basically exploring every road in ubin.. seems big but its actually small haha

ALL the UBIN photos with captions here!!!!!!! http://share.shutterfly.com/action/welcome?sid=1Qbt2bFsyYuTA

So after such a shagged day had to wake up early for miss lim (gp tutor) wedding! Super exciting.. I think its one of our class outings with the most turnout.. everyones excited at attending the church wedding. It was actually very short contrary to what ppl thought it to be! It was really sweet. Our class turned up in class man.. everyone was dressed smartly with class! Really an event to remember. Except when we were 10 mins late cos we couldn’t find our way to Wesley church. After that was a brilliant reception where we took photos… and which I did not partake cos already had a stupid egg mcmuffin… supposed to have the rose tossing thingy but it was not carried out last minute. So excited for all the girls.. to think we were rooting for miss tang (math teacher) to get it! Woohoo! Her wedding will be the next one for us to attend yay! After the wedding was just a slacky recreation session (if I may call it that) at the arcade/pool. Spent a few hours and a bomb there so yeah. Was spamming this o2jam-like machine which uses buttons and a pedal instead of steps like DDR. Oh yes also played DDR but MALUed. Then at nite was an outing with yh jing and some seniors.. meant to celebrate yh and enoch’s birthday! Dinner and bowling.. lost to jing… vow to revenge.. nuff said! Haha… argh. Actually I sort of went back to the bowling alley this time with bryan.. yay managed to bowl consistently after a 3-game warm up. I would say im quite confident at bowling now woohoo.. don’t have to lose face anymore! I love triple turkeys! Maybe next time I should get a birdie or eagle at golf too. I love birds.

pretty!

Tues after end of that stupid physics p3 the sista club met in afternoon for kbox! Yes yes it was helluva fun.. I think the thing I can confidently say I have developed this year is a thick skin! Make a total crap out of myself in other words… especially singing in kbox haha.. but its alright with the warm and ever-loving sistas.. =) yunting dajie, jing erjie, yeehwee sanjie, liangcheng sidi and mingseng wudi! I can be whoever I want to be.. whenever.. they are always there! Lots of love yay… took our first neoprint too.. which is my second one in my life haha so sad.

And I don’t have my first neoprint with me. Harmoc one. Apparently someone wanted to scan then never distribute hor. If u reading this u mite be the one haha.. I noe who hor.. I shall demand it from u one day

2day was a miniclass outing to watch SUPERMAN!! WOOHOO!! Hm quite rare to have an outing on a weekday.. but what the heck since everyone is like so free! Hurray! Altogether 9 of us.. me and Elijah yh cel lenny shymin christine mich wenxi. At cathay yeah! Terribly amazing place.. tho the shops are closed. Thank goodness for the nice nice adidas shop with that spanking new xbox 360 where me n lenny played world cup. Wooo so tempting to have an xbox360.. but not that I want one. It is a joy playing on it. The theatre is brilliant like business class seats.. somemore I was in the first row ahhhhhh so relaxed.. can slouch nicely too without fear of erectile dysfunction. Superman is quite brilliant.. the effects are whoaaa stunning and cool… esp the choppy ocean and the many many earth-shaking moments… not forgetting the scenes at high altitudes and all hahah u have to watch it urself to take it all in! the plot is ok I guess… a lot of loopholes in the physics of the movie.. haha .. we were discussing about parts of the movie that defied physical laws.. tsk tsk they couldn’t bluff hwa chong students lah. Nevermind hes superman anyway! Considering superman is like totally invincible.. speed of bullet.. body of steel. Superelephant strength? Ok more than that.. enough to carry away an entire continent lah. What could possible defeat him so that there can be at least a plot? Can u imagine every superman episode having a bad guy plotting to destroy the world .. or some serial murderer.. then superman just goes up at lightning speed to kill the baddie even before you can say “it’s a bird….” Thankfully theres green kryptonite to continue the story! I wouldn’t say the plot is very strong.. no spoilers here.. but a lot of movies are like that.. strokes of luck are needed to keep the story going =)

theres this amazing thing about superman about its undertones! Rite after the movie me and cel were already nodding away furiously about what we realized liao. Its so simple.. similar to chronicles of narnia (obviously) this movie has undertones of our christian faith! Its just so beautiful too. The story of superman probably doesn’t have christian links but then this movie sure does. Probably by a christian director… yeah cos it seemed very obvious to me and cel. Maybe I shld explain further. Basically many lines just lead to the idea that superman was in a way depicting Jesus as mankind’s one and only saviour. Already at the beginning was superman’s father’ pep talk to him.. or rather the talk before his death or smth.. something which superman remembers whenever he is about to die geez… its abt the father begetting the son and the son begetting the father. Something to this extent I couldn’t really make out the word. But isn’t so strikingly similar to Jesus and God part of the holy trinity? Ok maybe not so convincing. Then another line came that said roughly that “mankind need a LIGHT to guide them” referring to superman. Then the catalyst which led me to realize it was when superman brought lois up to the sky for a heart to heart talk of sorts. As they flew up to see the breathtaking scenary of the city and all.. what superman said really struck a chord with my heart… he said this exact same words.. “the world needs a saviour”. Who can the saviour be but our Jesus? I was welling with tears for a second or two haha.. honestly.. I was like very light and light-hearted that I could just fly away like superman! Hurray praise God! And then shortly came another touching part where superman asks lois lane up there in the sky.. “what do you hear?” lois says nothing of course (except maybe superman’s breath which is like turning her on) superman promptly replies that he hears EVERYTHING.. cos basically he relies on this hearing to go to the rescue of random ppl like everywhere in the world. With the sound effects of the troubled world.. and like all the different languages and stuff (hard to describe).. it was just so splendid. I imagined Jesus looking down on this pathetic world with love.. to think he died for all of us. I could see that amazing character in superman. But of course Jesus is infinite times better.. with power over death.. but his power of love is the best that he died for us. One similar thingy was when there was this thing said that superman’s father sent his son to save the world(or earth). Yeah isn’t it amazingly similar. Amazing. To think superman also had to sacrifice himself to save the earth from the ________(spoiler haha)… Jesus made an even bigger sacrifice!

Hmmm that basically sums up the superman story and my story these two weeks. Shall look forward a lot to tomorrow’s class guy’s soccer game! Then Sunday will be gathering for yau chuan’s farewell (sniff sniff) and ice skating in the afternoon. I don’t want all these to end! Most importantly don’ want school to end.. I would hate for the study breaks to come now.. school itself is boring but it’s the people who make the difference =)

Hm finally about superman it was quite surprising that… oh ok nevermind I realize I mite spoil the story. But I just have to say that lois lane is such a lucky gal, to have had such an EVENTFUL passionate night with superman, the man of STEEL. Wow. Sorry to say that wasn’t shown in the movie haha. Bye bye!

What exactly is going on between us?
Maybe its absolutely nothing?
Friends? Acquaintances? Strangers?
I really hate to bring this up...

les bleus~

2006-07-06T04:01:00.000+08:00

woohoo 1-0 at half-time! france go all the way man dun waste my money! such a heart-stopping penalty.. portugal so overrated sia.. i dun like christiano ronaldo lar good looking only.. always dive here dive there.. so good at acting for the referee... always solo kia but cannot finish. somehow i always feel song that hes booed whenever he gets the ball. damm so evil. nvm france will stay cool. i wud say portugal was better at attacking first half but france defence is like godlike lar.. nvm they will be more motivated at the half! they didn't even let brazil score how can let this portugal score man... barthez is always so comical i dunno why hes a goalkeeper hah! ok just entertaining myself in halftime cos o2jam is down... saddening right wenxi.. sigh.. nevermind.. oh and what irks me is the dirty side of football man.. tho i dun really play football myself hah.. i shall just be a spectator. footballers fall down like pins like that lar... tug shirt then fall.. every little thing also raise their hands to the ref.. esp that last one before halftime i remembered.. luis figo smashed the ball to the goal but deflected off thuram or someone.. then all the portugal players raise their hands for handball geez... the ball is like so fast.. guys will rather protect their jewels than stop it with their hands subtlely lar.. which was what the defender did in slow motion hah...

time to spend my time here fruitfully

2006-06-27T19:00:00.001+08:00

yay its time to blog again! i can't believe how short the _______ is! only like 4 days. and when the ________ is over im totally looking forward to it... can go out and pool on the last day of ________, then friday get the class to go ubin to cycle (hopefully), then saturday is miss lim's wedding wow!! (Good Morning Mrs Chan!). so exciting, monday free. eh wait. the actual last day of _______ is actually on tues but what the heck its a lame thing. then after that can go out play again! probably kbox cos on weekday! wow things never looked so fun after ________ i actually reaaaally look forward to the end of it. weird. after the ________ we are still supposed to continue to study anyway. probably even a lot more.

yesterday watched italy vs aus.. i don't reaaally support any teams. if i do it will be a per-match basis woohoo! of cos the teams that got my attention would be germany argentina and spain with their super slick passes. ah back to last night, or rather this morning sort of. it was an OK match.. not very exciting cos after italys red card they played defensive and aus just don't have any flair for attacking. but quite irked by italy's playing style.. i know soccer can be a super dirty game and all but the italians are just so damm cheap.. pffft i see them dive here dive there arghhh. my point of view anyway. stupid referee i think a little bias to them at times oso. esp the last minute (literally) penalty!!! i wouldn't mind watching extra time though theres exams... but that was a stupid way to end a match. when it came to totti to shoot my heart was just BEATING man.. wow nvr felt like tt before. really felt injustice if aus had to leave just like that.. really admire their fighting spirit to catch up in games and sportsmanship which seem to be lacking in the guys in blue. the golden goose (Gus) is cool too.

watching my fav fav show rhapsody in blue at 8! wheee.. not only is jesseca gd looking (my msn icon haha) but shes also very sensible in the show too! i like it.. like how she always gives good advice to everyone around her like her useless mid-life crisis brother haha. then the little girls acting is SUPERB!!! WHEEEEEE she will have a really bright future.. think she will grow up into a chio bu too!

motivation

2006-06-23T20:24:00.000+08:00

hah! i don't think i ever mentioned about MUGGING in my blog at all... maybe i will just mention a bit here. well i can't say i have studied satisfyingly (no one can say that... NO ONE. NOT A SINGLE ONEEEEEEE NOOOOOOOOO really) thats not really the point. i shall not ramble on stuff i didn't do too because it will only waste more of my time typing about it hah! although i must admit i have already wasted time typing whatever i typed before this. but i think whatever i will type if i should type about the stuff i shouldn't type on will be 100000000x longer. juuust hope for the best for blocks! yeah.. having the world cup and more recently *o2jam* an online game. damn its addictive. pls dun try it. yes. don't search for it in yahoo or google or what its not that fun.. im just addicted to it.. pls dun.. no... dun do it.... im not looking for ppl to play with ok.. just continue reading and.. no... don't search it up...

ahhhh so many ppl complain about tt JC sucks and all.. maybe but thats mostly cos of mugginggg... for me its similar to a lot of people i guess... i enjoy JC life the mostttt!!

hmm i realise we are already at the last lap of JC life! if my memory serves me correct july/august is when our life starts draining away haha... oh well we must at least get a life right before that.. hope the class will have a solid outing soon. next friday is end of blocks already yeah! so fast.. but quite scary

hi

2006-06-22T03:56:00.000+08:00

here i am again fully awake! half-time of argentina vs netherlands really exciting.. but then flip to the other channel and the commentator is absolutely delirious about the ivory coast vs serbia/montenegro match.. because at half time already 7 yellow and 1 red cards given out. and this referee really looks the fiercest of them all haha... this dark mexican referee has the gelled and neatly combed-back hair.. really looks fierce. nvm singapore best.. go shamsul haha! very kiasu also give out so many cards like free like that

oh yes before i forget heres a vid of argentina and their best goal (against serb/montenegro in the 6-0 thrashing).. shld i say THE best goal?

a 24 pass buildup before goal.. wow teamwork.. can pass off as a commercial..

still alive

2006-06-20T05:04:00.000+08:00

ah watched my first late nite soccer game i.e at 3am. matches are at 9pm,12am and 3am. tmr will be special with 4 matches.. 2 at 10pm and 2 at 3am. hmmm they are all good matches too. die. anyway today these lines kept running thru my mind, from cocolee's before i fall in love.

"someone to have and hold
with all my heart and soul"

wow

the night is still young...

Max what r u doing online?!?!

2006-06-20T02:59:00.000+08:00

Hm I dunno!??! Can’t be bothered to sleep yet.. tmr will be another day of mugging.. well not that I dun like mugging but time passes too darn fast at home I have no idea whyyyy…. Nothing much seems to get done anyway arghh.. maybe I will just stay up to watch Spain vs Tunisia. Tunisia will get thrashed anyway rite.. haha maybe.. ppl ask me who I support.. well I shld say argentina.. besides them playing super good soccer .. so many goals.. I also like their sportsmanship which I think is after brazil? Duno its just based on my observation. And they teamplay is so imba. So many good players having synergy.. theres crespo messi rodriguez tevez riquelme saviola who all left an impression on me that I rmb their names! Good.. argentina VS brazil finals.. nice colours. The allies aren’t very impressive (i.e france England usa).. but I can’t say the same for the axis germany hahahaha… im jus rambling abt soccer. Heres something funny I found posted in a forum.. not by me.. and I rmb reading a hilarious article in the Sunday papers about football-loving girls (wait what an oxymoron)

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1. Watching Germany/Costa Rica here in the States with the better half, when the TV commentator makes a mention of the "12th Man":
She: What did he mean, 12th man? I thought there were 11 players?
Me: There are only 11 players.
She: I only see 10.
Me: Including the keeper?
She: Oh... so who is the 12th man? One of the substitutes?
Me: It's a term for the home fans.
(5 seconds of silence)
She: So how do they choose what fan gets to play? Is it random or did they win a contest?

2. ...Whilst watching the opening game of the world cup I tried to get my girlfriend Julie to take an interest and was talking about Jens Lehmann. I mentioned that he's an Arsenal player and that being an Arsenal supporter I wanted him to have a good tournament.

She replied. "How can he play for Germany if he's an Arsenal player?"

3. ...I work with a bird who having watched the Italy - Ghana game, came into the office and said, "Which one of the Ghana players plays for the Czech Republic?" Her name is Lisa H, and she is a constant source of entertainment.

4. ...From a girl in my office during a conversation detailing the finer points of qualification from the group stages; "What happens if England and Sweden win all their group games?"

5. ..The local bar here in Montpellier has a few American workers who after reading in the Herald Tribune that they were 5th in the world were quite excited by the prospect of winning the World Cup. So I headed there the other day to watch the Czechs humiliate them.

During the match there were plenty of priceless quotes from two of the American girls but one of them came out with this peach after the match: "Yeah, but soon we'll have lots of money and we'll buy all the best players".

6. ...Whilst watching the opening between Germany and Costa Rica, my wife challenged me with the following questions:
When a team scores a goal and the players jump on each other to celebrate, do they ever jump on someone from the other team by mistake? And if they do, has that ever started a fight?"

7.
...My wife was watching the England v Jamaica warm-up game and commented "It's not fair - England won't give the other team the ball.

While watching England v T&T my friend's bird who for the life of me I can't remember the name of cos I don't pay attention, but she does look a little like the bird from Harry Potter says... "Can goalkeepers use their feet?" I just looked at her and shook my head.

8. ...My receptionist - "When are england playing next?"

Me - "Tomorrow morning, 2am"

Receptionist - "Who against?"

Me - "Trinidad and Tobago"

Receptionist ' "TWO GAMES?"

9. ...I was out having a smoke after the games on Saturday, when I heard a great exchange between two random drunken birds which went as follows.

Random bird one: "Did you see any of the football today?"

Random bird two: "No, why? Who won?"

Random bird one: "England beat Sweden, and Trinidad drew with Tobago"

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heres a Korean mtv called Because I’m a Girl by Kiss… rmb watching it like last year.. I think YH sent to me.. then I was choking with emotions… erhhh … ya ya right… but it is very touching and endearing yeah… now im watching it again cos my friend loved it so much and spent 12 hours composing the whole song in overture?!?! What the.. and it sounds very impressive. im finding out how to get the midi file to work here.

Erm why m I still awake?

I think i need to repent.

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world cup

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just something random before i retire to bed for my next 3 days of CIP camp thingy by the cip exco! ok so its not so random... kind of reflects my mentality now. let me present a graph (i know u guys will love it)

just a hypothesis on yearly BT2 results. males being adrenaline junkies will find the world cup irresistible. i think everyone sees the obvious what happens every 4 years. the effect is more pronounced as the year goes by because of technology with almost everyone having cable and especially starhub's HDTV. teens also become more rebellious and get involved with betting? nuff said. hey even girls are involved too no surprise! how can they not be intrigued by its effects on guys?! wow they must be wishing they exert the same effects (definitely NOT hahaha) if ur wearing a skirt and watching football you are cool man! just see the female soccer fans on TV they are so cool!! and hot of course.

sigh im just bored. i can see where this graph is leading me.. i think i might just follow that trend

good night!